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I went to sleep last night around 2am, so naturally I woke up this morning early and easier than usual. I didn't feel well last night and as a result, I can't recall my night visions at all. That really tends to bother me when this happens. On another note, perhaps more positive. I can still feel the season of Fall creeping its way in, but not in a bad way though. Yesterday, I shared this experience with pretty much all the valet staff that was working and asked if they ever felt something similar. Most of them did not, some did not care either way. I believe Fall is the time of light and darkness balancing out. A natural equalizer. Strange to be feeling this in July though. It's still rather cool (no pun intended).
This always leads me somewhere, where I never know. However it's usually unique in many ways, experientially speaking. Well that's this mornings update.
This morning I was awakened rather abruptly by my significant other. I was involved in some very intense dream cycles. I can only recall a "Nightmare before Christmas" style Christmas tree and these ground metal looking cables running to it to power it some how. I saw no lights on the metallic tree to be illuminated. Also, there was a strange pulsing smoke lifting off the bundle of cables running to the tree. It was like the smoke that rises from a toy train sets caboose engine car. There was soo much more and yet I can't seem to recall much of what I witnessed. I suppose I slept OK though. I also felt that familiar "Fall approaching" feeling that I usually get before the fall season. This usually happens in early August, yet strangely, It is occurring near the end of July. Every year I get this moment of overwhelming Fall like weather and the thoughts normally associated with the appearance of the trees turning brown and the feelings one gets when they first see this happening. A few years ago I noticed this occurrence and every year since so many years have gone by with this "knowing" and sensing in advance that I can't seem to recall the first year. My guess is that I have always sensed it and only became aware of it in most recent times. Either way, I love this feeling because of the feeling of change is a warm emotion deep within me. I also love the forewarning of it's arrival. It's an amazing feeling to receive from nature an "heads up" on the coming seasonal cycle shift. I am appreciative and very thankful for it's gift. I feel almost magical and peaceful when it comes, and so very much alive. It appears to be a corrective sensation. Just like the animals that begin to prepare for the colder time approaching. Nature seems to be saying" get ready, place things in there respective order and be whole by being compliant with the natural rhythms and cycles of life". I enjoy change very much and it shows in how often I change my hairstyle and style of dress and many other little things that I do. Well, this sensation normally sets me off on a quest for the deeper more spiritual paths of life. I begin to go off in search of the deeper meanings of events in my life. Like the body when thirsty will let you know it's time to hydrate and get some much needed water in your body. It's the spiritual that leads to magic in your life and makes it more meaningful and impactful. The end result is a person who is content with all their surroundings and everyone they come into contact with. To put it simply, to be in "Harmony" with all of nature. Adopting these principals and adhering to the call to be something greater than I once was. This advance "knowing" from nature tells me the same message each year and the urging to a higher path calls in different tones. I am usually lost before this and feel a brief longing for something yet I don't know what it is. However this is the feeling that leads to a search for something bigger than myself in a spiritual way and not religious. Well these are my thoughts this morning. Good day!
Last nights dreams were vivid as usual. I have been going to sleep earlier than usual. I feel an emptiness and anticipation simultaneously. It's very awkward. I will be 34 years old on the 28th of this month. From what I understand, 35 is a mans prime. I suppose I should start my rejuvenation process and healing the body in areas I have been causing it harm. For example, smoking. There are many others areas of concern, but this is the most pressing of matters. There is much to do and all I have is time to address it. I will. I feel and sense in a very real way closer to something. An awakening perhaps. What ever it may be, it will be of value, and important. Somehow it all connected and tied in to what I am here on earth to do at this precise place and time. Then again, maybe it's all in my head and this is just a way to respond to inevitability, and my unavoidable death. We shall see. I will be more attentive and watchful.
Last nights dream session was intense. There was for some reason a strong presence of water in different parts of the dream. I remember me and my fiance' arguing over where certain furniture was going to go in our home. It wasn't a real serious argument, however, I was annoyed because of the changes she wanted to make. Specifically the bed's location in the bedroom. This home of ours was not where we live now but, it was similar. The layout was very open. There was an adventurous undertone to the events in the dream. I believe that I knew it wasn't real, and played along with the events as you would normally do in a ride at Universal. So I guess I was just playing along. There was a point in the dream when I was looking out a window and the structure was primarily brick. I was noticing that we were on a secondary level and pretty high up. I was admiring the plants sitting on a plank in front of the window, marveling at the risky walk it would take to put them out there. I was impressed with what appeared to be the efforts of my stepmother. At some point the dream switched up rapidly or perhaps I can no longer remember. I was in what appeared to be an old fighter jet from WWII. It was night time and we were struck and the plane began to take a dive towards the ocean. I remember thinking will we feel severe pain on impact. Some how this is where I started realizing that there was that familiar ride feeling again and right before impact, I began to lose the fear of death. When we hit the water there were huge great white sharks swimming about in anticipation. Yeah ..definitely a ride. I took hold of one of the great whites fins and held on thinking they would not notice me attached to one of there own. It worked and while holding on, the great white I was holding came up towards the surface and I was on my back looking up at the night sky. There were hundreds and hundreds of stars out. It was a very clear evening sky. There were a certain grouping of stars that began to swirl closer together and I some how knew this to be of some sort of E.T presence and became so excited I began to tear up. They were coming to help "US" at a very crucial time. I some how knew that this event was very important for humanity. It was emotionally stirring. At some other point I was listening in on a conversation of what appeared to be a pit crew at some kind of NASCAR event. they were discussing a vehicle that was just recently introduced to the market that ran on no none conventional methods of propulsion and common fuel systems. It was so far out there, there was no none science to relate to its design. This is where the dream came to an end. The only thing that fits the description of this vehicle is Zero Point Energy. That's pretty much all I can remember for now. I'm not sure what this means, if it means anything at all. Perhaps it does and perhaps not. Either way.....I am still dreaming, and that can not be a bad thing.
Once again...I awoke this morning like every other morning before it. Sleep was ok. I dreamt of nothing memorable. It's been a while since I've had a powerful or important night journey. I am at a great loss of words. I am not sure what has caused this vacuum, but it is becoming more and more noticeable. I am still working and happily employed. I have a roof over me and my families head and there is food in the refrigerator for us all. For this I am very grateful! I have noticed that I have become way more aware and appreciative of all that I have and receive. I consider it gifts, and I'm truly grateful. I am content in this moment regarding physical things but feel a deep hole were that which can be only explained in spiritual terms extremely lacking. This for me is a very dangerous place to be. Stagnation eventually deteriorates the person standing idle. It is a slump and all experience it at one point or another. I still have hope, and that is all that is required to exist.
This always leads me somewhere, where I never know. However it's usually unique in many ways, experientially speaking. Well that's this mornings update. 
