Closer To Something

Last nights dreams were vivid as usual. I have been going to sleep earlier than usual. I feel an emptiness and anticipation simultaneously. It's very awkward. I will be 34 years old on the 28th of this month. From what I understand, 35 is a mans prime. I suppose I should start my rejuvenation process and healing the body in areas I have been causing it harm. For example, smoking. There are many others areas of concern, but this is the most pressing of matters. There is much to do and all I have is time to address it. I will. I feel and sense in a very real way closer to something. An awakening perhaps. What ever it may be, it will be of value, and important. Somehow it all connected and tied in to what I am here on earth to do at this precise place and time. Then again, maybe it's all in my head and this is just a way to respond to inevitability, and my unavoidable death. We shall see. I will be more attentive and watchful.