IN SEARCH OF

This morning I was awakened rather abruptly by my significant other. I was involved in some very intense dream cycles. I can only recall a "Nightmare before Christmas" style Christmas tree and these ground metal looking cables running to it to power it some how. I saw no lights on the metallic tree to be illuminated. Also, there was a strange pulsing smoke lifting off the bundle of cables running to the tree. It was like the smoke that rises from a toy train sets caboose engine car. There was soo much more and yet I can't seem to recall much of what I witnessed. I suppose I slept OK though. I also felt that familiar "Fall approaching" feeling that I usually get before the fall season. This usually happens in early August, yet strangely, It is occurring near the end of July. Every year I get this moment of overwhelming Fall like weather and the thoughts normally associated with the appearance of the trees turning brown and the feelings one gets when they first see this happening. A few years ago I noticed this occurrence and every year since so many years have gone by with this "knowing" and sensing in advance that I can't seem to recall the first year. My guess is that I have always sensed it and only became aware of it in most recent times. Either way, I love this feeling because of the feeling of change is a warm emotion deep within me. I also love the forewarning of it's arrival. It's an amazing feeling to receive from nature an "heads up" on the coming seasonal cycle shift. I am appreciative and very thankful for it's gift. I feel almost magical and peaceful when it comes, and so very much alive. It appears to be a corrective sensation. Just like the animals that begin to prepare for the colder time approaching. Nature seems to be saying" get ready, place things in there respective order and be whole by being compliant with the natural rhythms and cycles of life". I enjoy change very much and it shows in how often I change my hairstyle and style of dress and many other little things that I do. Well, this sensation normally sets me off on a quest for the deeper more spiritual paths of life. I begin to go off in search of the deeper meanings of events in my life. Like the body when thirsty will let you know it's time to hydrate and get some much needed water in your body. It's the spiritual that leads to magic in your life and makes it more meaningful and impactful. The end result is a person who is content with all their surroundings and everyone they come into contact with. To put it simply, to be in "Harmony" with all of nature. Adopting these principals and adhering to the call to be something greater than I once was. This advance "knowing" from nature tells me the same message each year and the urging to a higher path calls in different tones. I am usually lost before this and feel a brief longing for something yet I don't know what it is. However this is the feeling that leads to a search for something bigger than myself in a spiritual way and not religious. Well these are my thoughts this morning. Good day!