STOP..(exhale)..DISENGAGE

After resting some, and reviewing my last entry, I have enhanced my internal calm. I am not sure why, but, this present endeavour to proceed toward the exit of this current illusory landscape is proving to be a serious undertaking. I am sure that what ever the reason, it is to reinforce my earlier efforts to progress on a spiritual level, but yet, failed to do so. I have some how engaged the universe in such a way as to get this cosmos to align with my intentions and speed me along this path at a rate of speed that I have not experienced before. This attempt at purification and centering is far more intense than any previous periods . I am, however, not complaining, simply making an observation. Last night was truly an indication to me to remain centered,and focused at ALL times, so as not to be caught off guard again. I will. Today, I will engage my breath moment to moment. I will stay focused and centered on my breath. I will also remain mindful of the fact that there may come a moment where I am distracted and begin a descent toward emotional displays and uncontrollable outbursts. It is at these moments, specifically, that I WILL "DISENGAGE" the current moment and reengage my breath. I WILL exhale the word itself,as this has proved most helpful to me in the past. With so much coming against you, impersonally, one must stand silent and firm, like an ancient oak tree or lighthouse by the sea shore, impenetrable and strong. I WILL be focused today, and internally sound. I am committed to seeing a more promising future for my family, children,and myself. However, I do not wish to make light of the task, as it appears for now to be requiring a tremendous effort on my part. I WILL as with everything else, take these matters into careful consideration and apply my breath moment to moment . I WILL remain calm and observant. Until my next update......Be Well today! Be Whole! NAMASTE.