Striking Turbulance Moment To Moment

It was one of those mornings when you awake with a good nights rest, and you decide to begin your day with a silent meditation. There are those of the mind that your day should begin with a proper grounding of the mind before it runs off and you get stuck chasing it the rest of your day. I believe in this philosophy. So I decided to begin my day with a peaceful pause..........ZAP! I was immediately bombarded with several different thoughts at once, like a spam bot of thoughts that snuck in like a "Trojan Horse". I simply refocused on the breath and returned to my breath. These thoughts were powerful and dedicated to cause a mental fracturing and disrupt my fragile calm I had started out with. The battle was intense and long. Surprisingly, it managed to slow my progression to a soundless environment, internally. Overcome by frustration and equally in awe, I settled for a compromise between myself and the electric riot going on in my head. What I walked away with was enough to keep my zen dedicated mind content. I did enjoy a noticeable increased sense of calm despite my determined efforts. It was really troubling me with the amount of difficulty I had encountered. A powerful indication that there is a disturbance within is the short fused irritation that jumps up at the first sign of "gravel under tire" so to speak. This experience has been a humbling one. Also, a clear reminder to not set "time" constraints on your life in general which require time tempered patience beyond this realm. I stand humbled by this experience today. Perhaps next time I do this I will not judge my progress while I am progressing. Today's key word is "PATIENCE". If the word alone irritates you, then it's time to center. These random thoughts unchecked can wreak havoc throughout ones day, and consequently disrupt another beings peace. Compassionately understand that the other person has enough on there plate, especially if they spend most of their time "asleep" anyway, let alone begin their day off with an A.M. meditation. Even while I type this, I sense a hint of this rather troublesome little emotion of "urking" lingering about my minds perimeter......waiting to return. One must remember that the truly patient would recommend "one moment at a time". Deep breath in!......Deep breath out! AHHHHHHHh. Be Well today! Be Whole! NAMASTE.