The Ego Strikes Back

Much has transpired since my last confession. I have experienced much. I am learning the ways of "The Force". I am understanding my role in the grand play of humanity.When I write here "I", I am saying that "Jason" has done these things. Clearly I am that which underlies the entirety of my body. The "Vehicle" which maneuvers through this "Earth" matrix. "Jason" is allowed to interact with this matrix via the body. That which animates the body is beyond the ability of "Human" language to convey. Simply put, I am the eternal underneath the program"Jason" This program has been written to perform a function within this matrix. Our purpose is to allow the vessel to do what it is here to do. Don't identify with it as it is not who truly are. You are that which is in observation of the program. God watching over God's creation. Always and in all ways. For the sake of writing here without creating confusion, I will say "I" when speaking of the event that have "happened" involving this particular vessel/vehicle known as Jason. There are other Jason's in this matrix and to avoid confusion with them there is a unique fingerprint given upon the entry into the matrix. This fingerprint has been revealed to "me" as the key factor and "proof" that we all have come to this matrix to perform a specific task. For some the task is a simple role as being an aborted child so to bring awareness to this practice and have us become mindful of its use and determine it's level of efficiency within this matrix on a scale viewed through eyes of compassion. Peace within the matrix can not come about by "force", it must be achieved by understanding.In order to achieve thisWE" as a collective species must "BE" the "positive" change we are seeking in the world and others. Blowing up abortion clinics is madness and achieves nothing more ironically than encourage the abortions to continue. Innocent beings taken out prematurely on both ends of the action. Meditate on this and you will see this to be true. I slapped my daughter once and told her not to hit her sister. That hitting was "wrong". I no longer subscribe to this madness. Imagine in her mind the conflicting words against the action. What confusion I had created! This is on an individual basis. Imagine on a global scale. The "shadow self " is always tirelessly seeking to "posses" the human vessel in order to bring about disorder. We are a iolent species evolving to a peaceful species. This is occurring patiently and lovingly one kind act at a "time". Moment to moment we must persevere toward the worthy goal of eternal and timeless peace NOW! There is only NOW. Life can only "happen" in the NOW. "I" have entered time and time again into the present to readjust and align with the Divine prime directive and engaged my fundamental program. Which simply put is to love one another! We must BE proactive in this respect. Listen closely as I am about to tell you a powerful fact. Love has no opposite nor equal. Nothing compares dualistic ally to LOVE. Nothing. God is LOVE. You are made in the "image " of the creator. You are the recipient of The Eternal Source's affection. You are the experience of that which God knows conceptually. Time does not exist in the true sense of the word. Time has been invented to allow for systematic function within this matrix. We are always continually showing that LOVE rules....ALWAYS and Eternally! To take steps outside of the present moment known as the NOW is to step out of reality into the "illusion". Life can only happen "NOW". The power of NOW is free and available to all. You may access it at any time. However, when you do this you are going to experience resistance from the "EGO'" It will strike back and fight for the control of your mind to produce all the things that are destroying mankind NOW. You can not free the world until you have freedom yourself first. Free your mind from the control of the most powerful adversary you will ever face in this "Life". " If God is for you , than who can stand against you?" If you are the fragmented molecule of GOD the Eternal Flame, than you are God moving amongst the people who are unconscious of who they truly are. Free yourself NOW. The eternal source is never blocked or cut off from you. Ego tells a different tale. You must do this or that and so on and so forth. It is the "carrot dangling in front of the horse". You will never experience true and lasting peace by negotiating with the ego. Ego by nature of it's programing and prime directive is to survive at all cost. It fears deletion and so runs throughout your mind wreaking havoc in many ways. In the "end", ego loses. Why do I say this? You will become aware of the present and step into it as "Superman" does in the films. The phone booth represent communication which broken down further is communion with .........The Eternal Flame", The Source" You will upon entrance be transformed by the renewal of mind and emerge Supermen", "Superwoman". Hopefully this is enough for NOW, for you to see the truth you must step into it NOW! Do not waste anymore "time" being an unconscious slave. Become that which you were created to be. The Eternal Manifestation of the Source right here and NOW! As you read this know that you are speaking with yourself and have NOW been handed the key to your prison gate. Unlock it Now! Remember another powerful fact, there are NO accidents. All is as it should be and synchronistic. God is and always shall be in control of Gods universe. Return to the source. That is your mission. How do I do this? "Pick up the phone"and use the hard line god gave you. Here is a hint.....it's right under your nose. Bring ALL of your attention and focus to the "BREATH" and stay there until communication is established. This is something that has been lied about for centuries by those under the spell of the ego. Access requires not time. Time is you perceive it does not exist to that which is eternal. When you take a deep breath and repeat and repeat until there is only the breath.You will become aware of the body in a way that you have never experienced before. Go NOW and do this moment to moment without ceasing. Remain focused on the breath at all times and your "life" experience will begin to unfold like an action novel, via the coincidental events that once appeared random Now are leading you back home synchronistically. Be Whole Now ! NAMASTE!

The Beauty Of Anger

Alone with my youngest daughter,"Jayden" on the front porch of my home. She and I were engaged in silent mindful gardening. A peaceful setting. She and I together watered the plants that we have out surrounding our front porch area. Jayden will always ask me if she can help me with whatever I am doing. I do my best to allow for this time to be together, so as to use these precious moments to instill calm and quite focused movements. We had a plant go from a 4" by 6" in size to 2 feet by 2 feet in size, and overgrowing the second pot it was placed in. So, what a perfect opportunity, to practice mindfulness while attending to the needs of nature surrounding are home.
All was flowing in a ZEN like manner. She and I were consciously Breathing together. I was instructing Jayden as she watered the plants in the ways that one can be still and mindful of their actions. After we completed one of two new plants that would eventually be suspended on a fancy metal cross bar. I walked one over to the bar to load the first planter on. As soon as I turned around to go back to the porch, Jayden was asking a question, grabbing the other potted plant, ready and eagerly anticipating the prepping of this planter,some how, the other planter we had been working on had fallen over. After all the preparation that went in to this one plant, my "Shadow Self " aka: "The Ego" was so enraged that I said very firmly, almost instantly, without even a thought ..."Savannah!..Jayden!...." I stopped as soon as I had said it, realizing how fast the ego had taken over, the anger surged within so fast like some drug had just been injected into my veins. I was so angry that, I called out my oldest daughters name, instead of Jaydens. Savannah wasn't even home. She was in school. This is how delusional Anger can make you. That was how intense the emotion of anger struck me. Jayden froze with such a look of fear and dread. I knew this emotion had to be checked immediately, without delay. I plopped down into a chair behind me and she upon my last glimpse of her face, was frozen in time. Her beautiful face now with a tortured look caused by my tonality and body language spoke volumes to her Little mind. That face she made appeared to be frozen in what seemed like an eternity to me as I slowly walked backwards towards the chair behind me and plopped down in it. I covered my eyes as if I were going to cry. I took several deep breaths and focused intensely on them. As I began to breath deeply, something that has never in my life happened before, occurred , that was mind altering. I "saw" with my eyes covered in the darkness behind my eye lids, what can only be described as, jolts of electricity zapping at an internal mind screen, complete with sound and all. I began to focus deeper on the breath, in defense of and to connect to the stillness that lies deep within. The deeper I went the mind went into a frenzy of heart palpitations, with pounding and exaggerated speeds, as If I were under some assault. I continued to breath deeply to get some sort of grip on my mind running rampant like some caged animal. The mind could not get me to react and lash out so it turned on me. It began the "blame game", as if to lecture me. Once this realization from a deeper place came through, I was renewed with an intensity of focus. I became more focused than ever before, breathing with such mindfulness that I slipped "out of body" and into a "cathedral" size expansive space and a soft cooling blue shade all around and I felt as if I were traveling upwards, all in a matter of Nano seconds. This place was immense in a way that makes it difficult to describe. Jayden was reaching for the door and the sound of this I believe brought me back to my body instantaneously. I returned back to a stillness we had been feeling earlier.I opened my eyes and I said to her "Jayden wait!" What daddy"? Perhaps shocked that I didn't lash out and strike her in anger. In a playful tone I said "This plant needs are help". Happily and very surprised, she obliged. I was content with the results of being present and amazed at the same time at what had just took place. I had an epiphany. Anger requires energy to exist. If you confront your anger and acknowledge it, you can combat it by remaining present and channeling the energy back into the body in the present moment sending greater energy into your being. The effect can result in an out of body experience and possibly even more. This was my experience. I was moved beyond words. I will meditate on this event today. There in the presence of Anger, I experienced a beautiful thing, all thanks to Anger. I realized that I was simply breathing and not resisting. This single factor is the key here. Be Well today! Be Whole! NAMASTE!

The Arrival

So yesterday was very productive on many levels. I learned that "synchronicity" is one of the rules by which we play in this matrix. When you are present and focused on the breath, particular occurances are aligning to the universal flow of natural laws in the favor of those in a non resistant posture. I was speaking with a dear friend of mine the night before and wondered aloud if synchronicity had a place within the infrastructure of an "Ambient Lifestyle", which I mean to say one of continual persistant presence. Just for clarification, "synchronicity"is a phrase believed to be coined by Dr. Carl Jung. This principle says that when one goes silent and present with the thier breath, thier heightened awareness expands outward and intermingles energetically with the universe. When this occurs seeming "random" and "coincidental" events become more and more frequent. The more frequently they occur is a direct indication of maintaining a solid ground ing in the "present". All things become clearer, brighter and more vibrant. Now, back to yesterday morning. I was looking over my personal finances and had decided to adress some issues that required immediate action on my part. To do this I needed to go to a couple of places. One, was to "Publix", which is a supermarket chain here in Orlando Florida. the other place was to "Walmart", which I think everyone knows what this place is by now. Anyway, "Walmart" has a "Suntrust" bank inside, which happens to be my bank. So, I'm out the door and enroute. I am staying centered and focused on my breath. Upon arrival to the shopping center, to my left side periphial view I glance across what looks like a new place under construction there with a banner that reads " Opening October 2008". The actual awning is hard to read because it's behind a tree. I could have sworn it registered in my view as something "YOGA". !!!!!!!!! What?! Really quick,...I have been preparing to go to a Yoga center that is across town about 15 minutes or so away. I wasn't to set on it because my friend Thomas told me that there was a place in Altimonte Springs called "Kundalini Center", which from the email, the pictures were very inviting and seemed to resonate to the intamcy I was needing in a practice space and studio environment. Now , 60 seconds down the street I come across, once clearing the tree blocking my view,.........yes! "Bikram Yoga" and Namaste' Cafe"! Wow! This was a moment of confirmation that the universe was aligning to the presense I was bringing forth in my focused moment to moment traing of the mind. I was floored. I took very deep breaths and began to enhance my stillness and tried to maintain my focus. I called my friend Thomas to share with him this most monumental event in which he specifically would understand immediately and could absolutely relate to on many levels as he is very much in the process of training the mind as well. He and I have these kind of talk often. I welcomed the arrival of our new niegbors with open arms. Right down the street from my home was one of, if not the biggest, communications from the "divine spark" that things are advancing in preferct harmonic vibration for my bodies present incarnated path. I am and forever a believer of "The Power of NOW!". Let this inspire all those who are lost, and seeking truth, this truth you seek is and always has been available NOW! BE Well! Be Whole! NAMASTE!

Dissolving In The NOW

I was given the name "Jason" on July 28th 1974, wedensday night at 10:58pm in a Brooklyn New York's Long Island College Hospital. This was my point of entry. Labeled, tagged prepared for earthly existence by beings who were sleeping yet attempting to awaken to life's purpose for their existence through faith in Jesus. As you can imagine, life was difficult. To be raised to live to the standards of another human being and the interpretation of his actions by beings who were also asleep and not truly awakened, was disruptive, and mentally damaging to the human vessel I am currently occupying. I have always been At odds with my father and family when it came to faith and religion. Out right wars of ragging words and emotions over Christianity and the current and eventual eternal state of my "soul". It has not gotten any easier. My father is now a minister in training and sees the world through the "Bible Filter". The authors of this book insured it would be around for a long time by threatening any who opened its pages with a "hell" and calmed them with a "hope" for an eternal stay with "Jesus" in"heaven". Religion has been, in my view, the single most aggressive force known to mankind in suppression of the truth of existence. So many have died in the name of one "God" or another. However, despite my upbringing, I managed to discover the truth eventually by looking up. Yes, I looked up. One night, long ago, I had a moment of clarity in the present. I became aware of the magnificence and beauty of the night sky. In total awe and humility, I said "There is no way we have figure this existence out". I felt so small in such a vast place as the universe. I thought to myself how funny that humans had the audacity to persuade or tell another what they aught to believe. Sometimes by force, which in itself is an oxymoron. Such violence proves the lack of inner wisdom required to evolve spiritually. The present moment holds all the answers, all the keys to unlock all the doors in this "MATRIX" and all other MATRIX's. Looking to a past example of some persons actions is looking to the past. To do so, is to exit the "present" and "time travel" to a particular space, frozen in time. Either forward or backward, they are traps. The moment you do this, the "Prison Warden" arrives to give you a tour. That "Prison Warden" is your "Shadow-self", aka: The"EGO". So to end suffering, eliminate training in the art of exponential ignorance, letting go, simply disengage your mind by arresting your awareness and engaging the "breath". Dissolve into the present moment and "SEE" for yourself. You can only "Liberate YOU!" No one else can do this for you. You are responsible for your level of awareness. Now dis identify with the "shadow-self". Your life truly begins NOW! Be Well today! Be Whole! NAMASTE!

The Surrender

Since the last entry into this particular space, in the "ether" of the "NET", I have experienced much. Breakthrough after breakthrough, on multiple levels. The rate of speed is a true testament to the "TIMES"we are living in NOW. I have been made aware of an important fact, one that I had heard of before. This one bit of information is of vital importance to Humanity as a whole collective. I say this because it truly is the KEY to freedom. Who's freedom? Yours. All that exists is THIS MOMENT. All else is illusion. This is a fact. It can not be argued away, reasoned with, or denied by any scientific method. Once you come to terms with this truth, you will see that life ONLY happens NOW. Past is a concept in your mind, and one MUST relinquish it, and detach ones self from it. It is a memory. What is a memory, but a mere simple thought. Nothing more. That's all. The future is also a concept in the mind. A mere idea. In short, a thought. An illusion with ENERGY! Remember this, I will tie it in soon. At the start of this entry, to my blog space, it was some moment ago. Now, a FADING memory. Understand? Presently the words you are reading are coming from a DEEP undercurrent of all existence that speaks to you NOW! It can only be NOW! This entry is being created HERE, PRESENTLY, RIGHT NOW! When your eyes meet this page on the "NET" it will be from this very moment the "FUTURE", YET!.....By the "TIME" your eyes read this entry it WILL BE the "PAST" for the author of this piece(I). Do you see the truth yet? There is the you the world sees, the "shadow self". That shadow is casted by your true nature, just as the sun makes contact with an object and the object blocks this light from continuing onward towards the direction it is going. It leaves an absence of the "LIGHT" your true self which is the pure light of "AWARENESS". A state of an impartial knowing. The source of the light. All things in this universe exist because of original light that is always "PRESENT"!!!!! You are pure consciousness,. By the time this light enters this "MATRIX" called "EARTH" we begin to observe obstructions to the path of this light and observe its interaction with other obstructive "FORMS" in the Now, and so we are simply aware of this lights energetic play. We are the "OBSERVER". We ARE the light and that which obstructs it, in route to everywhere, because we are ALL ONE "flowing river" going down the "STREAM" of life together. In truth there is no separation as we define it here on Earth. Eckhart Tolle, author of "The Power Of Now" and other works says that "ENLIGHTENMENT" is NOT a destination but being "PRESENT" here and NOW. Nowhere else. Do you understand what that means for Humanity? You can not purchase it. You do not have to "GO" somewhere to "FIND" it. Eckhart Tolle says that we are ALREADY enlightened! We simply just need to RE-connect to the "SOURCE" of life, which is YOUR intrinsic nature. How is this done? I hear this from people often. Simply redirect your "FOCUS" to your "BREATH". 100% With out any distractions. Your "BREATH" IS the Life. Once your attention has been brought back to "PARADISE", drink from the "FOUNTAIN OF YOUTH" which is the AIR you are taking into your lungs. Surrender to this simple act, from moment to moment, and you will have achieved what others have unfortunately ended their play here on Earth, in search of, what ironically they already possessed. Surrender NOW! Become a part of a massive shift that is already occurring here on Earth, right NOW! Remember, the "Shadow Self" is NOT who you are, niether the body casting it, but that which "ANIMATES" the body is YOU, the "OBSERVER"! Be Well today! Be Whole! NAMASTE!

In Awe Of The Female Energy

After watching the RNC last night, I had a thought regarding the Presidential race to the White House. I witnessed a major shift in ideology in politics. I saw a woman amidst a sea of people, speak from a feminine view point, and what I realized was the glaring obvious. Woman have not had a an equal voice and say in the direction of this country on a global scale. They have not been treated with equality and respect the way the founding fathers of America had envisioned or promised. Now, a woman stood before the world and spoke of her vision for the future and determination to blend her energy into a male dominated arena, and what that would entail. Her speech was moving. A Woman of Compassion and integrity, that would set the standard for generations to come and open the possibility for a world fractured by energetic imbalance. Not just any woman, but, a woman that accurately depicts a generation of transition and awareness. Not "just words", but ACTION! Perhaps this is premature, but, to raise a family of 5 and one with special needs, all the while looking after the special needs of the citizens of her state is in my opinion, Honorable, and an inspirational story of courage under fire, and the tenacity to hold her own amidst a tremendous storm of opposition. I was impressed beyond belief. I was stunned by my own ignorance to the fact that a new era required a total change of view to see a bigger picture. ALL voices and GENDERS must be heard! Her placement on the Republican ticket represents critical evolutionary thinking and amazing balance. It is nothing short of brilliant! To place a woman on a major party ticket IS bold and fair. This decision may bring fresh ideas and hope to a fractured Washington. I am stunned by what I witnessed last night and equally humbled by my own surprising prejudice. Governor Palin will undoubtedly go into the history books as a world figure of heroic proportion and reach mythological heights. I respect her and all woman of integrity and compassion and sheer determination in the face of overwhelming odds in a male dominated planet. The world needs a compassionate heart NOW more than ever and this move by the RNC shows tremendous courage. Their is hope for tomorrow, and the future we all have envisioned is faster approaching and now possible. My sincere congratulations to Governor Palin and my most humblest apologies for ever thinking anything less of a female candidate. I wish her a blessed journey! These are my thoughts this morning. BE Well today! Be Whole! NAMASTE!

NOW Is All There Ever Is

I read somewhere that "to speak of mastery, one does not have to be a master". Or, how about this one..." fake it, 'till you make it". I recently came across this suggestion, "see your self there until you get there". I have heard time and time again that the master you seek is, has, and always will be within. This image should make one desire to open the door to your mind, not go to India in search of a "Guru". Walk in to your minds internal space and simply observe this child like atmosphere running wild. When you are ready, your 'inner voice" which can only be heard clearly when you quite the room in your mind down, will speak to you and say "here I am". You may be called to a mirror which will show you the master that always was, is, and ever will be......YOU. You are the master! When you are ready, the real YOU WILL appear. I say this not because I have achieved such a goal but because I have had glimpses into this eternal moment. However briefly visited, one can hope to return to this place of sublime silence and awaken to the truth of who we really are. We are ONE and the same! The past is gone and but a mere thought. The future has not occurred "yet" therefore again, another thought. Then what is truly left? The PRESENT moment of NOW! This gift holds the promise of your greatest reward. All your efforts repaid NOW in the NOW. Talk about a great compensation plan! I am aware of something better than what I have been "taught" to believe. The Buddha said that "a thing is not true unless you have observed it to be true for yourself". Seek the truth for yourself. Pear into the present moment and see for your self what awaits. I have experienced many things in my life, but I sense that what awaits us in the present is beyond our present imagining. Why do I believe this? Most people, myself included, live in the past, or are worried and anxious about a future filled with "Karma" waiting to come and take them out. The present is usually void of our individual consciousness. I wish to return there. Would you like to come with me? Our world is fractured. Do you agree? I am fractured ever moment I spend in contemplation about what I "did" and what is "going" to happen! Wholeness can only be found in the NOW. This is what those who have gone before us have discovered and so lovingly have passed on to us. There inlays the truth. Hidden away in the present is YOU the Master YOU have always been in search of! Let us unify, become ONE and in doing so WE WILL CHANGE THE WORLD! Be Well TODAY! Be Whole! NAMASTE!

Sleepless In Orlando

I have been unable to sleep soundly in the past 24 hours. I had the most difficult time trying to fall asleep. I just layed there, with eyes closed yet wide awake. I reminded myself to not become frustrated, but, simply focus on my breath until I drift away. It worked but briefly. I was easily awakened by the slightest noise. At one point, I was tempted to get dressed and take a drive to the local Walmart and walk around until I was completely exhausted, but, I decided against that. I suppose out of compassion for my body and it's obvious need for rest. It's been quite some time since I could not fall asleep. Restlessness of this caliber seems to be an indication that something is occurring on an important level. I have yet to discover the cause for this, but I am in no hurry either. It will be revealed in its own place and time, of that I am certain. However, on a more positive note, I was able last night to meditate successfully. I made great progress in last nights session of tranquility. Perhaps, I thought to myself, last night's sleepless episode was a direct result of the meditation. I was able to go deeper than I have been doing in a really long time. I was energized by the results of my latest efforts. Finally heading in a positive direction for once in what seems a really long while. I am less distracted these days of late. I also have found questions coming from co-workers regarding my recent attitude adjustments. I believe they are sensing a positive change in me that requires furth investigation. I also yesterday found a video for Tai Chi practice which I will begin doing daily. It is a profound session performed by a Master of Shoalin Chen Style. It is amazing to watch. The monk appears to be under water while going through the poses. Just watching transmitts aprofound energy that is absolutely tangible.I have also done a little of Yoga and am preparing for the first full session today to begin officially. So here we are making progress and you have now been made aware. Well, this is all for now. More to come I'm sure. Be Well today! Be Whole within! NAMASTE!