The End Of The Road

This is an image that resembles my feelings some times when I am overwhelmed. Anxiety grips quickly, and I feel like getting in this position. This posture says "leave me alone!" and " I can't take this anymore!" I have been there before. I have felt this way many times this year after my loss of focus on the present moment. In fact I have felt this way more times than I would probably like to admit. This is a place emotionally that I believe many arrive at, and that's OK. It's what we "do" within that moment that matters tremendously. It's what occurs afterward that determines whether or not we will stay in this position for a long time. This position can potentially lead to the "blame game" and lots of anger. Also, this posture can lead to self pity. Neither attitudes are constructive. This is what I think that the "end of the road" looks like for many of us. I'm pretty much there now. It's what action I take next that determines if I will arise and find "THE" posture of liberation. That posture is one of intense oneness and calm. This would be evidenced in the language of the body because of the state that my mind is in. How vast a universe are our individual minds. I experienced moments of zen beyond texts, whether sacred or not. I also know the experience of the absence of such a state and the resulting pain of loss and serenity afterwards. I must speak truthfully here. I miss the feeling of oneness and the joy that it brings is lasting far more than anything I have ever experienced. I have been restless now for much too long, however irrelevant the subject of time is. I will focus on the breath now , once again taking my seat in the proper place. The seat of the SOURCE of All that is. Be well today! Namaste'!