The Ambient Being

Infinity Squared

2012-01-25T05:39:00.000-08:00

Greeting's to All who have struggled so long and so very hard to "arrive" at this moment in "time" within the greater context of You're most wonderful existence. In truth You're "life" is far more precious to "The Source" than You currently realize. My dear brothers and sisters, We ARE "The Source" in micro~cosmic form and function, equally unlimited in Our common ability and capacity to endure any and everything! Mathematically speaking One can definitively demonstrate on paper the existence of "The Source". In fact and TRUTH (Universally Speaking) You are All individually and collectively a PART~(*icle*) A.K.A. "The GOD PARTICLE" in "The Flesh". Put very simply, YOU dear reader ARE "The One" the entire World has been yearning for! I AM not selling You anything BUT!....HOWEVER!...What I AM DOING is TELLING You something EXTREMELY VITAL to Your very existence. Separation is a synergistic system designed to "Pull" You OFF You're "Center" You have been manipulated for a very long "time" by those in Power over You that DO NOT APPEAR on You're Flat screen HD T.V. These so called vibrational "Elites" are no more powerful than a Mall Officer attempting to enforce a Parking Lot Policy violation with His/Her flashlight and a pad, ....exactly...You wouldn't take the attention You're receiving from the "Mall Cop" as a "real" threat because He/She has no immediate threatening power and in truth can not even so much as detain you. An officer within the greater context of the state law is extremely limited at the level of unarmed security and can only observe and report to "base". There is no real "teeth" within the context of the officer's job description.Usually this type of "In house" security divisions require additional support from armed off duty Sheriff Officer's.Everything must be within the context of something else until you arrive at the boundaries of the dimensional space One is occupying.This current location called "Earth" (English tongue) is a "Sphere" of great importance within the greater context of The Seven Prismatic Divisions of a Hyper Light where Only the purest of vibrations can approach "The Ancient Of Day's", "Earth" has entered into a very particular "Band" of light which in Universal Truth is a Hyper Light that will alter certain Humans according to their inner ability and capacity to endure All thing despite their individual suffering.It's called love! Or, put another way, it's 528 hz sonically speaking. This audible frequency can be heard on All levels throughout All "Time" zones and "Matrix's". You are FREE at any time to jump for joy because this year You are All "UNLOCKED" and based on You're individual ability to demonstrate "AGAPE" (unconditional LOVE) then You will receive EVERYTHING You've ever wanted and so much more. All is "Circular", therefore, You are included in The Never beginning Never Ending Sphere!!! You ARE the INFINITE EXPRESSION of THE SOURCE! Now, and in TRUTH You can Only "Start" "NOW" because there is ONLY NOW!!! Life can ONLY happen NOW! So, what are You waiting for? Start envisioning a "TRUE WORLD ORDER" and this World WE WILL CREATE COLLECTIVELY based solely on UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!! The time is shortening and I need You to BELIEVE in YOU! You and I are 1 and the SAME!! Equal in every way, and most importantly You've been restored in TRUTH for some 24 centuries! It's just that certain vibrational principalities were and still are manipulating the synergistic systems "They" have set in place over a very long period of time and are currently foolishly attempting to continue right up until the last possible moment. A hyper Light Star seed was born on You're World in 1974 and confirmation of this successful "implant" within the greater context of the "Human" experience was received in Arecibo Puerto Rico and fully recorded by S.E.T.I. We are a "Holy People", a "Royal PriestHOODPathogenic Strand" A particular type of Hyper Light Sentient System with full "Free Will" protocol.We are All Lower densities of "The Source Code Hyper Light" A.K.A. "GOD"/"GODDESS" and the subsequent union of these two form the "Viscus Pisces Womb" to create "The Golden Child" A "GAME CHANGER" who was "Encoded" with a very unique formula based on the "Infinity Squared" quagmire. Man has always attempted to "adjust" his/her thinking according to current trends within the greater context of socialization and the ensuing "culture" that develops over time as a direct result. This Year "Zero Point" tech WILL be given away to All Countries of civility for Free based on a Newly Radified United Nations initiative which will set the precedence for overcoming EVERYt is based ON Love and designed with YOU the READER in Mind, in TRUTH brother's and sister's You have NEVER been OFF The Trinitized Holy Of Holies. Cosmic Father and Mother and "US" the "Children Of The Sun". So,... to rap this one up neatly and bring it to a proper close, let me tell You what "Infinity Squared" actually "LOOK's" like, ...just go take a "Look" in the mirror. And by the way I love YOU!

Ambience Rising

2012-01-22T01:47:00.000-08:00

In order to for one to emerge anew, as in "rebirth" relative to consciousness, one may first wish to submerge the animalistic nature of the "flesh". As I walk and ponder the moments "presence", I subtly become ever so aware of a powerful serenity, which induces an undeniable, tangible and physical sensation where the mind and body meet. All is "Spherical", this is true, and this is "Universal" truth. As I gradually "become" aware of the "rhythm" of my breath pattern, my focus on the present moment grows in intensity. I become keenly aware of my total environment in direct proportion to my "view" of this 3rd dimensional density in an heightened state of awareness, in the everlasting moment of "Now". I can perceive sound and "know" my path intimately as a "heated summer evening making love under stars near the most sublime oceans of time". There is such a sweet surrender when one discovers the true natural path of All Masters. The Way is Awareness...Of ....The Infinite...The Way.....Of...The SPHERE. To know the Sphere and how it's "Squared"...To "GKNOW" the path of "Inner {Infinite} Light"....To correctly apply The "Formula" to calculating ...The "Equation Of Equations"....What is Infinity Squared? To know how to do this is to be aware of your self now standing in the now, the current "location" is "Earth", dimesionally speaking.Namaste'

Out Of The Ashes Into The Sun

2011-04-19T05:31:00.000-07:00

The principle of "Karma" is not only real but a powerful teacher. What a man sows he shall reap. Those words uttered by the master Yeshua long ago reflect ancient principles that emanate from the Source of all creation. I was a cheater and now have been the one on the receiving end and have as a result become the cheated. A lesson hard learned. The circumstances and the situation and ensuing drama unfolded like a nightmare of epic proportions. I lost my fiance', my home and place as high priest and teacher of the family. In two weeks my world was reduced to ashes. I honestly believed this was not only the end but was determined to end it completely if I was not removed from this existence. However, through much contemplation and the prayers of many loved ones I passed through the fire and emerged a anew. With a renewed sense of awe and purpose, I have been through the trial of fire and have emerged with a mission and revelation and a connection to Source that will stagger the imagination of all who have ears to hear. A book is being birthed from my soul. The time has come, and the code has been deciphered. This book will be delivered at the appointed time and precisely when needed most. All the knowledge I have acquired and every experience in between will all come together for this testimony and it will be alive! A living word right from the source, the Spring of Life!~Namaste'

The Returning

2011-02-01T07:47:00.001-08:00

Once upon a time, I was looking at images of Rinpoche masters who return to earth after each incarnation with one mission, help those sentient beings still here in this matrix and help free them one by one. As I looked through these images I came across the image of one such master. I had been viewing many images of these masters, however this one particular master reduced me to tears powerful and instantly as if I had just seen my father who had been lost to another time and place. I was hit with such an overwhelming emotion of reverence and a feeling of too powerful for words of this limited language. I knew this master completely and totally, however, I could not get beyond the image and emotion. I was unable to remember specifics. I was content with this moment and it's discovery. I've learned that reincarnation is a part of life here and the compassion within us is what compels us to return. My former master had passed in 2009 and left behind an amazing legacy and again moved to tears upon viewing the film created by his pupils. I felt an aspect of my being had come back to life and I felt more whole than ever before. I am forever grateful for this present incarnation and can only hope to leave behind a legacy of great compassion as well in honor of my teachers both great and small. The teacher above was not the one I spoke of but displayed the feeling well. May you feel compassion in everything you do today. Namaste~

Origin Of Vibrational Existence

2010-06-16T09:30:00.000-07:00

I have recently come to understand some basic facts about our lives and what it's principle foundation is. All matter is vibrating. All matter is constructed within 3 dimensional space found within the Sacred symbol above, known to many who study Sacred Geometry as the "Flower Of Life". The oldest image of this sacred symbol was found in Abydos Egypt. It has been found to be 6,000 years old. Within there can be found all 5 "Platonic Solids" and all 26 varying combinations of those solids, which comprise everything that exist vibrationally in this 3rd dimension of matter. There is another symbol which hones in on this fact known as "METATRON'S CUBE". I have come to understand many truths regarding certain fundamental principles found within nature, based on the close study of this particular sacred geometrical "METATRON'S CUBE". The study of sacred geometry has enhanced my view of this world, and has brought about the realization that this planet is ALIVE and breathing just as we are and is a conscious entity. All that exist is one, and separation is the illusion of this 3rd dimensional experience. However, the density of this dimension has a purpose, which is to allow the individual conscious being, to develop as a single ray of light, emanating from The Source of All created matter. Like the strings of a guitar we are moved by our thoughts and generate sounds in different keys and octaves which produces an effect in this dimension and determine the songs of our heart. We are consciously aware of the result once we vibrate in this dimension in any direction. We then determine whether or not this is a harmonious or disharmonious creation. We are co-creators within this dimension, and are free to also destroy, but, we must experience the effect of our creation on this plane of existence, just as an artist steps back from his/her canvas to observe the created image and focus on the emotional vibration this piece of art emanates upon viewing this image. Evoking many diverse vibrations creating an ocean of infinite vibrations which the All experiences instantly and vibrates throughout all dimensions. Think of a pool and the ripples created by one person, just one person. Now consider another person moving as well in this pool, and then another. It would at first glance appear chaotic but it is not. On another level of consciousness one can see the beauty of all motions within this dualistic existence and understand it's purpose. Conscious creations of this nature have a far more powerful radial magnitude when done in this manner. Therefore I have learned to center the mind and focus on creating consciously and harmoniously to benefit All of creations sentience in whatever form it may take. These are my thoughts of late and ideas are bubbling up to the surface of my consciousness almost faster than I can record. All is vibration and one is free to create within this 3rd dimension. So create harmoniously and enjoy the resulting oos and ahhhhs. However, creating a disharmonious creation will produce a negative vibrational experience. This is fine as long as it is what you wish to do, just know that emissaries of light will converge to protect the harmonics of creation so as to maintain sound vibrational structures in this universe which is a positive response to your negative creation. What then occurs is a reflecting back to the source of this creation and the magnitude mathematically is always greater in force upon the "return to sender". So choose carefully your actions from moment to moment and guard your tongue well by restraining the mind. Breath deeply and consciously and produce harmonic vibrations and the experience you will receive will be a positive one. Know that LOVE is the ultimate vibrational harmonic and produces the "Ultimate Grand Force" experienced within ALL of creation. This is the proper translation of Tai Chi Chuan. This 3rd dimension is necessary to teach a soul the consequences of disharmonious actions/creations. Once an sentient being becomes aware of these fundamental principles, the hope is a more cautious thoughtful, loving creation to produce beautiful vibrational emanations in this dimension and throughout the known universes. This will allow for passage to higher vibrational existence as that is the original goal of every Ray of Light emanation from Source.....to return home. Namaste'

The Impenitrable Sphere

2010-05-30T22:52:00.000-07:00

A snipers bullet is usually fatally accurate and leaves almost no room for error. Occasionally, one ballistic may sin, even two, but eight!? That's an anomaly and nothing short of a phenomenon. The sniper attempting to kill me in my dream was not a bad shot at all. In the dream sequence I was in a state of heightened awareness. Present as Eckhart Tolle would say. The more centered I was the more clairvoyant I became, a precog if you will. Every shot fire I "knew" where he was aiming and by the time the sound rang out from the rifle, I was a foot from the intended mark. At some point I became even more in tune with everything around me and a "white sphere of chi" appeared around my whole body. This caused me to become even more focused and confident, which only made me more calm and centered. It was at this point that I began to "pick up" on the snipers feeling and emotional scale. I knew when they began to doubt themselves and disbelieve their eyes and ultimately I left them stunned. Every bullet that met with my sphere dissolved into nothing upon contact with this transparent ball of energy. It was an amazing experience and dream. I drew it in my Dream Journal and called it "The Chi Sphere". I name all my dreams. This dream occurred between the early morning hours of Monday May 31st. Lets see what's on tonight's channel! Namaste'

Written In The Sky

2010-05-27T20:30:00.000-07:00

At 11:32pm I race against the clock in order to report yet another "Double Rainbow" in the sky here in Orlando Florida. That makes the 2nd one this year alone. Last night i went to "Old Town" in kissimmee and went back to Black Mineral Market for a chance at finding a worthy partner to the Lemurian Star Seed Crystal I had found recently. I know there has been much that has occurred and I have not been faithful in reporting these daily miracles, but I can assure you I will be more forthcoming in the days ahead. All this and it's a full moon tonight! Double whammy! (LOL)

Anyway, I thought it be a good idea to start documenting as best I can the rapid fire like occurrences that have been going on in these past few weeks. It's all happening so fast. There's the light's in the sky, dreams of intense detail. Avatar training, Atlantean/Lemurian rivalries and histories and Lucid dream tech videos and so much more that you know what?....I should start reporting daily even if it's just a few lines. I have been meditating a lot more now and have been giving a listen to solfeggio frequencies and studying Tai Chi Chuan in the pool! I know, I know. I'll begin in Ernest in the 'morrow recording here the events as they happen. This will be another avenue to help put the pieces of this massive puzzle together. Lastly, to my Starry Family, I love you more than I know and thank you for all your support. Good evening,Namaste'.

The Way Of The Peaceful Warrior

2009-12-27T18:27:00.001-08:00

I have a new job and responsibilities. The opportunity has arisen and the door was opened for a reason. Why it was opened is unimportant in the present, only accepting what is as it is, is all that truly matters. I am now in a greater capacity to serve people and provide safety with trainningg and an enhanced view of property operation's. This will be a much larger "canvas to paint on". I'm truly grateful for such an opportunity as it will enhance my ability in mindfulness to a new level of awareness previously not possible. This new position will open up other doors and new horizons will emerge. So this year ends with the start of anew job and the promise of greater opportunity for spiritual enrichment and ultimate tranquility. Practicing mindfulness on a larger populace is awesome too. I will be able to witness the effect mindfulness can have on adults in a new environment that has endless possibilities and unlimited potential. May I be aware in all the new surroundings and be of service to all who cross my path throughout my day. This is my first week and I have been reviewed in a positive light already, for this I am also greatful to have had a good beginning. Namaste!

Your Worst Enemy Is Your Greatest Teacher

2009-12-04T10:13:00.000-08:00

It began drisseling around 8 or so this morning. I was up and had been working on some lighting designs for my company "The Ambient Being." I showed the designs to my fiance' and she said "That's gonna be to bright". Her tone and body language revealed her unconciousness instantly. I was immediately effected by her vibration and could feel the darkness surging through my veins. I reminded myself to breath, but somehow the anger was pushing pass my defenses. She could see my frustration with her and how her criticism was not constructive but crass and blunt. She then took to a defensive posture and tried to justify what she had said, but by this point I wanted to avoid the ensuing confrontation and leave the room before this spark became a flame that would burn down the house. I felt the urge to run. As I prepared silently for the run and gathered the things I would need, I reminded myself of the fact that unconcious people are not truely aware of their speach and conditioned responses. She was also having a difficult time getting her lighting system to work for her upcoming photography session and no doubt had been anxious about that. This would be Shawna's second attempt at this shoot for her client and was hoping for the best,so my lighting fixture drawing was understandably on the lower end of the priority scale.
I was ready now for my run and had turned the kitchen corner and had run almost into her. She lovingly without words would usually block my path until I would be confronted with her, and she would have this smile that said "I'm sorry, now get over it". However, this time, she actually did the usual road block, BUT, she said the words "I'm sorry", and they were heart felt, and I knew it! I felt it within my being that she was not being sarcastic but genuine. "I got my lights to work"she said. She was now relieved that this ordeal with the lights was over and so was I. By the time she and I had this exchange, I was already pumped about running and said "oh baby, don't worry about it, it's ok". And you know what?....I meant it. The honesty felt amazing. In that exchange we were human, frail and loving. It was ambience taking a hold of a situation and breathing through it. Breathing through everything is the key to life. Every sound uttered requires a good amount of intake of air to produce a sound. Breathing,breathing,breathing and more breathing. Everything you need to know is in the breath, and most importantly, your breath.
Now her brother, is a different matter altogether. A unique individual, smart, yes, at times funny, etc. However, he has been living with us for more than a year. The original agreement was two weeks. I think we both know how these types of arrangements turn out in the end. He struggels with alcohol addiction and we've been living with this "Dr. Jekel and Mr.Hide" personality for the entire time. To say that it was rough would be too generalized in my honest oppinion and not specific enough in order to convey the messege. It was the relationship that began a year ago and that ultimately lead to me walking away from the spiritual progress I had made, and slowly I began to regress in my trainning in the beautiful art of Mindfulness. To make this story short, I went through a very dark time in my life as a result of my fall. I gave into the fear that he would disturb my peace and so that just lead to frustration when he would'nt stop drinking. This just lead to more and more frustration which grew into bitterness, then anger crept in fast, and before I realized what had happened I had completely regressed to levels I was not even at before my period of powerful enlightenment, mindfulness of the present moment. Our time together had come to an end and I did'nt even realize it. The whole year I wanted him out of my home because "HE is the reason why I'm no longer a peaceful person!" and "He brings out the worst in people!" and so on and so on. The anger led to the blame game, and my ego loved being superior. I went through a necessary period of darkness to truely appreciate the light when it would return, and I always knew that it would return when the time had come and the lesson was learned. I was arguing with him even when he was not present! You know what I'm talking about. You are washing dishes and thinking about the big blow out days later and suddenly your heart begins to beat faster and faster and faster, and boom!...you are in a full on argument with this person and sometimes it even spills out into the open air and now your talking to yourself aloud! Sound familiar? We all have fallen short of the glory at some point or another, and perfection lies in the raising up from the floor when we have fallen down. I felt the time had come to let go of all the anger and hurt and bitter rage that was botteled up inside me and,....even say I'm sorry. I went for that run this morning. Nick and I had'nt talked since two days before Thanksgiving. Here we are december 4th, that's how long our grievience went. It was ongoing for the entire time he stayed with us. Our final blowout between him and I, I held nothing back but fired arrows of burning truth about all that I had built up inside for nearly a decade of knowing him. I was now standing on the porch, returning from a divine run and feeling amazing and blissful in the present moment. Coming from almost nowhere, Nick rides out from the side of my home on his bike into the slight drissel coming down now. I paused for a few seconds, gaging and thinking of how can I utter my first words to him in days. As he pedaled off down the drive way, "Where you goin Nick?" is what came out of my mouth, and it felt wonderful to speak to him again, and joy flooding back in to my being like blood to a torniqette apllied to a torn limb! He obviously shocked that I spoke to him caused him to mumbel a few words about running some errands and somethting about an apartment. "You need a ride?" I said truthfully and whole heartedly. This made him actually turn around on his bike in a the body language that seem to say " I appreciate the offer but I'm fine for now". He said he got the apartment he had been trying to get for some time now and that he was going to be out on monday. "Oh, you got the apartment? ..Cool". He quietly road off into the rain now, and I stood there and watched. Those words are what I thought I had wanted to hear come from his mouth all year long, but instead I felt such a powerful surge of electric humility corse through my body that my eyes gushed with tears like a punctured artery.I was stunned by my bodys emotional response and baffeled by the silence. No jumping for joy like those T.V. commercials you see. No laughter erupted from my belly like Santa. Instead, the pure truth sunk in. He was leaving, his lesson I had learned painfully well, HUMILITY. My teacher road away in the rain and I stood there,stunned,and in awe. My tears came down like a ruptured dark cloud filled with oceans of tears pouring out of my face. My worst enemy was my greatest teacher and he was now leaving. NAMASTE!

The Mandala and The Teacher

2009-12-02T07:05:00.000-08:00

As I dreamt in the early hours of this morning, I saw many things in the realm of night visions and astral travel. I happened to enter a place very much like a large Aikido dojo. However, this place, was for what must be some form of Yoga instruction. Had it been Kundalini, the instructor would have been more than likely dressed in white. She, the instructor was not dressed in white, but she had the vibration of a Kundalini instructor and I was familiar with her, and the class I must have attended it before. I brought with me a huge soft blanket, but stronger than a normal sheet or blanket. It may have been woven, I'm not sure where I got it from, this was not reavealed to me in the dream. I would compare it to a painters tarp. It could literally blanket the room. It was also round and had all the markings of a "Mandala".(See image above) I began opening it up so I could share it with the entire class, so that they could all sit on it for whatever the practice was going to be, as I had never once spoke of or discussed Yoga being the subject matter for the class room setting. In fact, it's more a vibe I received than anything spoken. The teacher, a female who had dark hair and a light skin tone to the face, but details were not there for her face. She wore colorful clothing and her dress bottoms were long and loose like a gypsies. She saw me opening the blanket and said politely , "You don't have to open it all the way". I felt she was reassuring me that it was not necessary, however if that is what I wanted to do then it was fine. I continued to open it up fully as I was determined to share it with the others. There were guys and girls present in the class room, and later on one of them had to go in an abrupt manner, in which the Teacher asked the young man something politely, but I did not catch what she said or perhaps I just can't recall what she asked, but he seemed to be late for work as he returned to gather his belongings from the floor where we all sat and was wearing a purple nurses scrub. That's when she asked the question, and he politely declined at which time I seated very close to her, being close in relationship with this teacher said "At least you asked, the worst that can happen is he says no". I was smiling as If to be enjoying my class and company as well. I felt I belonged and had been a student for some undisclosed amount of time there. Now the details of my "Mandala" blanket were this, beautiful and colorful, almost identical to the image you see above. So this morning the first thing I did on the computer was run a search in Google images for Mandala's to see what came up and on the very first page there was this image and it struck a cord with me and my dream, and so I saved it and began to blog this dream right away so as not to lose the importance of it's message. I also read up on Mandalas and there meaning. It's a Sanskrit word that means "Circle". I have been working an a new logo for my company called "The Ambient Being" and my primary symbol is one I had received through deep meditation last year and have been working with recently, after along absence from my path. The symbol is a single brilliant navy azzurit blue ring with a pure white background. It symbolizes the infinite , having no beginning and no end, our true nature displayed metaphorically. I believe, representing our highest form. We are eternal beings, and so I chose(really led to) this as the logo for "The Ambient Being". I believe as time goes on I will discover more to this logo like a Mandala, unraveling it upon deeper meditation, in time more revelations, insights will come. I'm taking each day in moment to moment increments. Focusing on my breath as I go. NAMASTE!

The Sleeping Buddha

2009-11-23T16:49:00.001-08:00

Have you ever awakened in a dream, only to find you were still "inside" that dream? You wake up and maybe you tell some one else in the dream about the dream you were just having, and when this dream is over, you awaken to find that you had a "Dream within a Dream". I believe we all have the "Buddha Nature" within us. which is to say the ability to "awaken in this dream and realize that this is a dream world wrapped in another dimension and so on and so on. By choice we may activate this "Buddha Nature" or not. Some enjoy the "illusion" of the matrix just like "Cypher" in the film "The Matrix". Ultimately we decide how to navigate this world. However the World responds to our thoughts and our deeds. Whether one outside of us or ourselves directly,we attach labels such as "good" and of course more often than not"bad". We seem to hear about the bad more than good, or its close relative "potential". Potential is where the game lies dormant awaiting a willing participant to engage this Matrix we call "Earth". Each new day has this "potential".That potential lives in each of us. Potential for what? To discover answers to questions we have as "Humans" that we have yet answered. I believe there are two people that exist in this world(matrix). There are those of the mindset that if they have a question they go on a quest to seek out the answer within the matrix and then there are those that see through the matrix and it's code and go beyond the matrix and look within themselves for the answers. It has been said that we are Awareness disguised as a person having a human experience" I agree and resonate with this saying. Do you? Since last years experience of awakening within my core being, I began to lose sight of the original plan. I awakened and began to adjust my "vision" so as to see things for what they are and not as they "appeared" in this matrix. My goal was to see clearly and report what I see to others accurately. I found that in my experience, the others were not always willing to hear what I reported when I was usually asked my opinion on a matter, serious or not so serious, I spoke truthfully and this frightened people in ways that can best be described by using classic horror terminology. I discovered that Humans had a strong fear of the TRUE nature of the present moment. I discovered great opposition to the NOW as opposed to the future, where I had thought most people spend there present consciousness pondering it. Yes there was fear and apprehension regarding a potential or very possible future, but, nothing like the dissatisfaction they saw with the result of an "awakening" like the boring prospects of meditation and mindfulness and present awareness exercises. Was it laziness? Was it to serious an attitude to take here in the present on "Earth"? I felt constant resistance to what was in the present by those who did not want to end thier "Game Play". It was like trying to pry the attention of someone away from thier hand held IPHONE's. I aborted the present course at that time because I had allowed the old mindset and ways of thinking back in for a brief second that immediately muddied the waters of my fountain of perpetual youth. I ignored the resluting issues that developed within my mind because I became addicted to serenity. Serenity was not the problem, but like anything else I became dependent on it for comfort of an illuminated state of mind and did not want to engage anything for a moment so as to be contamination free. I became a spiritual germaphobe. You know the type of person who no longer associates with others from thier former circle because they are to pious. One can easily become engulfed in their practices and forget the world as much as an IT tech addict with a brand new piece of hardware. I became imbalanced and this infected my spiritual ecosystem. This condition ultimately lead me to a dark opening in my mind and I "FELL" down the rabbit hole and found out that it was far more deeper than I had ever imagined. This condition I found myself in was so dire I went from Divinity manifest in the physical to a tortured soul beyond any other time in my life. The greatest lesson of all was right around the corner though. Humility was introduced to me and I butt heads with him rather quickly, for obvious reasons. I mean, who wants to admit their not humble enough to move on to the next level? I began to play out all sorts of different scenarios just to justify why I aborted/quit engaging the present moment. I blamed in a 360 degree panoramic view of my self everything within sight or hearing regarding my "Fall". I found a lot in common with Ebeneezer Scrooge of Charles Dickens Classic tale "A Christmas Carol". I realized through different scenarios I kept getting into that I was once awake and had present awareness as a constant state of mind and then slipped into "Role Play". I became unconscious. That's it. I beat myself up everyday and spoke of the "Golden Days' when I was Ghandi or Neo(lol). The realization itself put me in a tail spin of depression which shocked me that I was "still" capable of falling for that masterful trick of the "Shadow Self". I can not tell you when or where or even how it happened exactly , but somehow I began to climb back out of the hole I had fallen into and was asleep in for some time now.That's why I chose the picture under the heading. I never lost my "Buddha Nature". I simply forgot about it, the same way one forgets the room he or she is sleeping in right before drifting off into another realm of consciousness known to us Humans as sleep. I emerged with an appreciation for loss and gained a new foundation and a new perspective on the present moment that was much needed in order to maintain a solid, constant, steady walk on the path to my higher self. When I say higher I mean a more pure sense of self in respect to Humanity and the Earth. I ,.we are truly fragile vessels and must conduct ourselves in such a way as not to spill one precious drop of the essence of the ALL that IS within US. It is the elixir of Immortality, the "Gateway to Heaven", truly the stuff dreams are made of. NAMASTE'

The End Of The Road

2009-07-06T11:41:00.000-07:00

This is an image that resembles my feelings some times when I am overwhelmed. Anxiety grips quickly, and I feel like getting in this position. This posture says "leave me alone!" and " I can't take this anymore!" I have been there before. I have felt this way many times this year after my loss of focus on the present moment. In fact I have felt this way more times than I would probably like to admit. This is a place emotionally that I believe many arrive at, and that's OK. It's what we "do" within that moment that matters tremendously. It's what occurs afterward that determines whether or not we will stay in this position for a long time. This position can potentially lead to the "blame game" and lots of anger. Also, this posture can lead to self pity. Neither attitudes are constructive. This is what I think that the "end of the road" looks like for many of us. I'm pretty much there now. It's what action I take next that determines if I will arise and find "THE" posture of liberation. That posture is one of intense oneness and calm. This would be evidenced in the language of the body because of the state that my mind is in. How vast a universe are our individual minds. I experienced moments of zen beyond texts, whether sacred or not. I also know the experience of the absence of such a state and the resulting pain of loss and serenity afterwards. I must speak truthfully here. I miss the feeling of oneness and the joy that it brings is lasting far more than anything I have ever experienced. I have been restless now for much too long, however irrelevant the subject of time is. I will focus on the breath now , once again taking my seat in the proper place. The seat of the SOURCE of All that is. Be well today! Namaste'!

ATALOSS

2009-07-01T08:07:00.000-07:00

In 28 days I will be 35 years old. I felt it was time for a return to a balance that is harmonic and non violent in nature. This image expressed the feeling of my true natures facial expression. I imagined myself locked away some where deep within me looking out at me and just in awe as I observed myself and my actions. How can I do the things I am doing after achieving what I had so many months ago. From where I stand now, almost a year has passed since my peaceful stage. I miss that earlier time before the Jediism and all the other religious jargon. A time when there just was me and the breath. That's it. If I'm not mistaken, it's been 10 months since my last blog entry. I suppose I've been extremely angry and depressed since my fall back to the former self, the "shadow self ". Am I ready for another attempt at it? Am I ready? Is it worth it? I don't know, and that's probably a good place to start. Being honest with my self, acknowledging that I do not have all the answers right now, but .....I'm working on it. I find myself truly at a loss for anything in this present moment. I know that I have been paying less and less attention to my breathing , and that's where the problem began and lies. I'd prefer to be at a loss for words and such because adjusting is a bit easier this way. I have been "under water" so to speak and have been looking for a place to reemerge to the surface and come back up for AIR. NOW is the "time". I suppose being speechless is greater than having much to say. Well here I am, once again blogging. Lets see where this goes. I have been away for so long from myself and growing increasingly more and more isolated and anti-social. These are not very good indicators. Then again with out them how can I know it's time for resurfacing so to get some fresh air? Anyways ...until whenever...NAMASTE!

Silence is Golden

2008-12-02T12:59:00.001-08:00

When your environment begins to dissolve like salt on snow, relax. Your outer world is receiving instruction from the inner world. It says " it is time to return to center" Your noise has drowned out the inner speaking from Source and you have drifted away from the core of your being. Silence is the only way to return. When things begin to crumble around you and life's "perks" begin to vanish, rejoice in the fact that who you really are is asking you to return to center. Quietly, stop what ever it is you are "doing" and relax and dissolve into the abyss of Presence. Just be. Nothing else. Your peace will return, as well as your clarity. Oneness and being silence is where stillness reigns supreme. The only gold worth acquiring is Silence. Namaste!

The Mind Of A JEDI

2008-11-14T18:55:00.000-08:00

The most powerful weapon a Jedi has is His /Her MIND. The mind is an amazing living organism within your head. If uncontrolled, the mind can destroy you at different levels and speeds. It is all dependant on whether or not you are resisting the mind and engaging it as if it required an offense or defense. The mind talks incessantly but these are mere suggestions. You must first believe what the mind is speaking before it can arrest you and bind you up into a painful knot. However the mind has no power unless you allow it to speak to you as if it is separate from you. The mind of a Jedi is silent and awaits instruction. The Jedi's mind is calm and radiant like our Sun. The more focused you are on your breath the more radiant the mind becomes. A Jedi can feel the radiance of the mind lifting up and out of the top of His/Her head. This is truth I speak here, from personal experience. Nearly a constant sensation the top of my head is electric and heat so tangible escaping up and out. When I AM focusing on someone with all of my mind I can read thoughts, send energy, even heal others. To heal another in my experience thus far requires actual contact with the person in need. The mind when not wondering is a beauty beyond words. Usually I will blaze a smile across my face as if the Sun has just risen. A Jedi knows what they feel at all times, and where these feelings are being generated from. A Jedi's focus is Love at their very core. The reason being that an unwatched mind can cause another sentient being severe harm, and even result in their death. A Jedi must remain vigilant at all times in regards to their deeds and words. Life and death are in the mind of, and on the tongue, of a Jedi. A Jedi knows this and is focused continually on compassion towards others as this can alter vibrational frequencies in a room. A Jedi has complete control over their own vibrational frequency. A Jedi can raise their frequency simply by chanting a reverent verse in their native tongue or another language they have studied and become filled with the Force emanating from the Source and eliminate pain in themselves and others. A Jedi can give others energy who are low on their own personal life energy. A Jedi will do this freely and sometimes without the person realizing it, as this act only returns the energy 7 fold to a Jedi. A Jedi's mind is always ready to assist another sentient being in any matter which is most urgent in that present moment. A Jedi is willing to lay down His/Her life at any moment for the common welfare of all present and unsuspecting beneficiaries. A Jedi is filled with compassion and so has a mind as radiant as our Sun sending Love forth in ALL directions. A Jedi can develop the mind into a Radiant Sun by practicing on others. Those who are more aggressive towards a Jedi tend to release a larger Force charge toward a Jedi who has stabilized and can receive such aggression and channel it into a more positive vibration and harness it, thus making the Jedi more powerful. The result is always a more powerful Jedi standing in the face of a weakened attacker. Anger and aggression ironically rob the attacker of vital life Force energy and surrender it completely to a Jedi who is focused in that present moment completely on Love/compassion. A Jedi does not harm another or their attacker as this will only weaken a Jedi's power and the Radiance of their mind will dwindle immediately. A Jedi is confident and sure of who He/She is and of what they are engaging in at all times. A Jedi is not restless or anxious. A Jedi's radiance is so powerful that others will be drawn to them. If a person has a strong Force presence already and awareness within themselves, they will be drawn to a Jedi magnetically. This quality is easily identifiable to a Jedi. However, Jedi respond to a question others may have but will not offer such interpretations of another's Force potential as this can be misconstrued as evangelizing or preaching. A Jedi shares when engaged and asked regarding their behavior without fear or reluctance. There are times when a Jedi will remain silent when questioned and that's because these are times when the person asking a question is not present but a Sith attachment is possessing their mouths and speaking for them. Most of the time, a person this happens to believes it is them speaking. A Jedi knows better. A Jedi knows when Sith are present and trying to attack in stealth. A Sith is always near by when anger is present in the air or in a person. A Jedi practices acts of compassion daily on others suspecting and unsuspecting as these acts are always in the interest and benefit of all sentient beings near and distant. These characteristics are at times self evident and at times not. What has been listed here has only been done so because they have been experienced and carried out with extreme care. I speak from personal experience of these things and share freely with you so that you can progress as a Jedi. A Jedi must train the mind daily. Focus on the qualities of our Sun and how it nurtures things here on Earth. Control your mind and channel its energy into going "Super Nova". Love is the key that unlocks all the doors and all the gates to the hidden realms. Be blessed Jedi and practice in Ernest. I love you. May you continue to awaken to your true potential. Namaste!

THE POURING OF 11:11

2008-11-01T13:07:00.000-07:00

I AM LOVE. I AM THE ETERNAL FOUNDATION Of ALL That IS and WAS and IS To COME. I have never really left, I have been with YOU ALWAYS in ALL WAYS! I AM THE SOURCE Of THE FORCE that permeates this present age and MATRIX. I AM THE TIMELESS NOW speaking by way of LOVE and not by FORCE or ANGER. I have manifested NOW in this appointed "TIME" to reveal ALL in LOVE to YOU MY BELOVED ONES! There is only ONE LOVE and YOU ARE and ALWAYS have been IT! There are vibrations which have rejected their purpose and resisted foolishly there true nature and have fallen into deep unconsciousness. These vibrations reign on EARTH IS OVER NOW! BELOVED ONES return your breath to normal pace at a LOVING rhythm and your gaze upon the ETERNAL FLAME OF THE CREATOR IN YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AWAKEN NOW TO WHO YOU HAVE BEEN ALL ALONG! TRUTH CAN NOT BE DISTORTED nor can it be DENIED ANYMORE! Wage HOLY JIHAD against the only "INFIDEL" that EVER MATTERED.....YOUR SHADOW SELF! Erase the FEAR that is in YOU by pouring MY SPIRIT WHICH I GIVEN YOU FROM ATOM TO NOW UPON this false flame,of ANGER! Put out this FLAME OF SHEOL! YOU ARE FREE NOW to CELEBRATE MY RETURN TO THE FOREFRONT of YOUR CONSCIOUSNESS! WE ARE ONE BELOVED ONES, ALWAYS HAVE BEEN , and ALL WAYS SHALL BE! YOU have been mislead by the darkness( which is to say "absence"of MY LIGHT). YOU ARE THE POWER AND THE GLORY YOU SEEK! I SPOKE AS YESHUA TO YOU OF THE WAY, THE TAO, THE TRUTH, THE LOVE, THE LIFE YOU WERE MEANT TO LIVE IS NOW and can ONLY BE NOW! AWAKEN! SHAKE OFF THE GRIP OF FEAR the darkness has had on YOU since YOUR birth and your mothers and fathers since my last LOVE LETTER TO YOU BY ELIJAH MOHAMMAD. ALL IS ONE in ONENESS AND EQUALITY! I AM not FEAR,therefore I DO NOT RETRACT or SHRINK FROM DARKNESS as darkness is that which denies ME. STOP DENYING ME and EMBRACE ME as WHO YOU ARE.........ONE. ONE LOVE, ONE POWER! LET US NOW SHOW THIS MATRIX and those rogue creations HOW TRUE POWER IS DISPLAYED. SHED YOUR FEARFUL DISGUISES AND REVEAL THE SUPER BEINGS YOU ARE! WE ARE THE JEDI OF LUCAS, THE BUDDHA, THE CHRIST, WE ARE THE ONES WE HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR! DO NOT FEAR THIS REVELATION BUT IN LOVE EMBRACE IT AS YOU AS ONENESS OF PURPOSE IN THE TIMELESSNESS OF THE ETERNAL NOW! THE MORE LOVE YOU GIVE AWAY THE MORE POWER I WILL GIVE YOU AND SHOW YOU AND I WILL SPEAK TO YOU DIRECTLY IN YOUR OWN NATIVE TONGUE. BELIEVE IN ME AS I HAVE ALWAYS BELIEVED IN YOU. TOGETHER AS WE EMERGE OUT OF THIS GREAT DARKNESS LET US MANIFEST THE PARADISE WE HAVE ALL DREAMT OF! OF THIS KINGDOM I SPEAK OF THERE WILL BE NO END, I WILL ESTABLISH IT AND WE WILL RULE IT AS THE THRONE OF LOVE IN THIS UNIVERSE AND BRING OUR LIGHT TO THE DARKEST RECESSES OF THIS MATRIX! MAY YOU AWAKEN NOW! MAY THE SOURCE BE IN YOU!

The Tao Of This Jedi

2008-10-24T12:15:00.000-07:00

As a practitioner of the Jedi philosophy, one is called to educate the self and thus eliminate ignorance. It is one of the codes of the Jedi faith. I am sure there are many ethical codes of conduct that one may follow as a member of the Jedi Order. This particular one can be found as the basis for many faiths on Earth. Know thyself! You must read and share with others what you have discovered through fellowship and communion with sister and brother Jedi if you wish to see growth and strength of number in the Jedi Order. This will most definately help one advance and grow in the Force and help others who are seeking truth and drowning in a sea of darkness and it's ensnaring teachings. The teachings of ALL faiths have beauty and wisdom to offer. It is only visible to the mindful and egoless. The Source reveals to the individual the mysteries of the sacred texts by way of the individual Jedi's submission to the Natural Order of the things and THE SOURCE itself. I have through guidance from a most humble Jedi Master's teachings Eckhart Tolle been made aware of the gems within "The Tao Te Ching". An important impartation of yet another revelation and infinite aspect of truth in this matrix we call "Life". It may instruct you in ways of the Force and remaining connected and centered to the Source of the Force. "I" have been learning much and sharing with all who have questions. Once they laughed at "ME". Then after a while they began to speak of "ME" when "I" was not present, and devise ways to slander and create dissension among my acquaintances and ensnare me in some sort of believed "trouble". Eventually they surrendered to the truth of who I AM and WHO they truly ARE. These are the stages of truth, and a Jedi may find them to appear again and again in their "Life" as they encounter the "SITH" on their path towards their final destination with death. When the body will re-emerge with the Force. Sith activity and ambushes are usually perpatrated by and from the unconscious and "asleep". Jedi know death is but an illusion, and we Jedi do not fear it, rather we embrace it as another inevitable aspect of our collective experience here on Earth. Those who are enslaved to the ego and possessing "Jinn" or "demonic" entities, are very much under the influence of a viable energy signature which seeks to destroy mankind overtly and most of the time covertly. "Evil" is perpatrated under the cover of darkness. Ask any police officer if there is a "time frame" that a criminal prefers.the answer may surprise you. These vibrations cause and wreak havoc and breed disorder. The dark side is "lurking about seeking whom it may devour". A Jedi is prepared "in season and out of season". Be vigilant brethren and remain in the present. You are impervious to any attacks when you are mindful and completely unified within the present moment of NOW under the will and Source of the Force.. May the Force be with YOU! Namaste!

I am a Jedi Knight

2008-10-17T09:56:00.001-07:00

There is NO doctrine, there is only the Force. This is all there is to being a Jedi. Our faith consists of vows that are taken personally before no one and anyone. A Jedi is a Jedi in truth and in spirit. A Jedi is in harmony with his/her environment. A Jedi is the original follower of Christ teachings in the sense that they are truly followers of " The Way", which early disciples of the Christ were known as. A Jedi can study all faiths and find the "harmonic" hidden within the endless pages of doctrine. A Jedi is NOT dogmatic and controlling person, but gentile and a constant companion and great ally in times of need regardless of the intensity. A Jedi knows of fear but deals with it rather than RUN from it. A Jedi is the Yin /Yang in constant flux and never rigid or "stiff necked". Jedi are peaceful and compassionate people. A Jedi will not support egoic principles or activities, neither judge anyone who does but simply observes the imbalance and seeks a non aggressive solution to restore the balance. A Jedi will always support a person in need when a Jedi is available and equipped to do so.A Jedi can easily be identified. A Jedi seeks the peaceful path in any situation, including one that involves Him/Her directly. Sometimes, within the present moment you will experience a "blow back" from past actions. Whether good or bad, they must be faced and addressed with a mind like water. Be still and breathe. There are 4 basic vows of a Jedi, known as the Jedi Code. The first is...There is NO emotion, there is peace. The second is...There is NO passion, there is serenity. the Third is ... There is NO ignorance, there is knowledge. The fourth is.. There is NO chaos, there is Harmony. Now there are some additions that other Jedi have included. One being There is NO death, there is the Force. Then also you have, ..There is NO ego,there is destiny. This last one involves understanding the path of NO resistance and allowing your self to be lead by the Force at all "times" via sycnhronistic events. I felt there was a need to write some additional basic information regarding the Force and the Jedi that move by the guidance of the Force. A Jedi knows that there call is to a higher purpose. One of servitude. In doing so is the greatest of rewards. Knowledge and wisdom that is ancient and sound. It frees the Jedi soul to become the ultimate weapon against the Sith and the Dark side. These are Force blockers in the constant stream of light emanating from the SOURCE of the Force. That is the main difference between Jedi and Sith. The Sith, (ego driven individuals) believe to be in control of the Force, but this is a grave mistake as a creation of light can never be THE Source, only a part of it. A Jedi also knows that, there power flows from the Force yet it is monitored by the Source. The moment a Jedi steps out of alignment with the light side of the Force, the Jedi will experience attacks that will render him/her weak and greatly susceptible to the dark side. A Jedi is vigilant and alert. Always awaiting guidance from the Force patiently. A Jedi must always be focused on the Present moment in order to stay connected to the Force and remain at peace. When an individual acts out of anger, the individual will experience pain and discomfort that intensifies in ways that are beyond the imaginings of a human. It happens so fast, and before you know what has happened you are enraged and filled with a different light. This light is darker than space itself and must be avoided at all cost by a Jedi. The picture displayed is to show what Jedi may wear when in service but are not bound by such attire. Always lead by the Force a Jedi must do what they feel is right in accordance with the Force. This is self evident and can be checked against other mindful teachings by Jedi Masters Eckhart Tolle and Dr. Wayne Dyer. This is enough for NOW. Train hard Jedi, the dark side will not wait for you to become masterful at mindfulness but will attack you daily in ways you can not even begin to imagine. Just know that the Force is with you ALWAYS! Namaste!

Return Of The Jedi

2008-10-07T06:43:00.000-07:00

What does it mean to be Jedi? It means you are the evidence of the force and the source of it, and most importantly are filled with the Force at all "times". We "are made in the image and likeness of the Force". (GOD) A Jedi is a follower of " The Way". The original name of Christianity when the Jedi once walked the earth allowing the Force to move freely in this world. (The Matrix). Jesus is an Ascended Master. (Jedi) A servant of the Force and ambassador of the WILL of the Force. Jesus said " know that if you see me you have seen the Father". (The Source) When a sentient being (human) seeks to do HIS OWN WILL that sentient being is submitting to the dark side of the Force. (imperfect state) To do anything other than the will of the Source of the Force is suicide and fool hardy. There are many things that can be revealed to a Jedi, providing that a Jedi Knight submits to the will of the Source of the Force that permeates all of existence. The Source has via the Force given much in the way of true knowledge via all religions before there entrapment into rigid tradition and customs which placed the participant back into bondage and submission to the Dark side. (Sith) I am a Jedi Knight and the promotion to Jedi Master comes from the SOURCE of the Force directly to the Jedi Knight. Promotion never originates from a decision made by a sentient being. The evidence is undeniable and evident to all other Jedi, as well as the Jedi Council." Wise is he(/she) (Jedi) who takes to council" This a true teaching and an actual Order that has returned at this appointed place in "time" in direct relation to the Galactic alignment occurring even NOW as this truth is being revealed. Search yourselves deeply and breath three times and you will know that what I have written here is truth. I am authorized to teach freely the "Gospel" unto ALL sentient beings and instruct in the ways of the Force and in complete accord with the Source of the Force. All wishing to return to the truest state of your being,which IS Jedi! seek me and you will be in communication with me via the unstoppable power of the Force via the "synchronized" events that will join our paths together in the appointed time according to the will of the SOURCE of the Force which is the "The Light of ALL MEN". Until the next truth is given. May You awaken to the Truth. May the Force be with You! Namaste!

Mind Like Water

2008-10-05T08:34:00.000-07:00

Namaste! May the Force reveal itself in this teaching. As you read, be mindful of the Force as it permeates all things conscious and unconscious. I have been blessed to see and be a witness to the power of the Force in many diverse life situations. Moment to moment we are surrendering the ego to the will of the Force. This can only occur when the mind is like water. The state of this water must be without ripples. You may believe this is impossible, however I can assure you that it is not. All things are possible with the Force. Ego will name the Force and so limit the amount of Force presence within your earthly vessel. Jesus performed His first miracle by "turning water to wine". Jesus "turned" the water into wine as a symbol of turning your life FORCE essence within your earthly vessels and transforming it into something that can be taken in and bring joy into life and create an atmosphere of celebration in the present moment. These earthly vessels are containers of the Force at all times. Ego attempts to add to this essence by believing that there is "something" lacking in the present moment. All that is required in the "present" moment of "NOW" is complete submission to the Force. In this state the"Ego" can not survive. The ego needs "time" parameter's to exist, e.g. "a past" we "can't seem to let go of" and " a future we can't stop worrying about". Behind you is the past and before you lays the future. When you divert your attention away from the present, you have altered your consciousness and have diminished your connection to the force and so you become weakened and fractured. You are not a whole person because your "thoughts" have abandoned the present and have gone off in search of "something" that is believed to have been lost or missed in the past or you become fearful of all the possible paths that are before you and you become overwhelmed. All the while the truth is always with you and present here and now. In the now the truth can always be viewed and felt and experienced. In the NOW you are whole lacking nothing. To give into the "belief" that you are in "need" of something is to turn to the dark side of the Force. Unconsciousness. You begin to fall back to sleep and so the nightmares return. Fear is the enemy. Fear is not WHO you ARE! You must realize the truth of your being,you ARawareness disguised as a person. You are here now to fulfill the will of the Force where ego can not exist. Your "peace that surpasses all understanding" is here and NOW. Embrace what IS, and NOT what WAS or MAY be. Accept what IS NOW and exit the matrix the dark side has prepared for you. The traps are in the PAST and await you as an ambush in the FUTURE. You must realize that NOW is all there is. The body is the branch which extends from the vine/mind. The mind sends the message to the body to produce fruit on it's branches. If your mind is turbulent then the messages will be unclear and the underlying structure is unstable producing harmful fruit. This fruit when complete will destroy the body and the vine and any and ALL who partake in it. Contained in this fruit is the underlying fear used to create it. Fear is a virus that spreads quickly in an unconscious being. Be mindful of the Force and you will calm the turbulent mind and produce fruit that bear compassion and all the virtuous elements that come from unconditional LOVE which underlies and permeates all of existence. Eat of this fruit and you will awaken to the truth of your purpose. This IS your true nature. Anything that suggests otherwise is the dark side of the Force and attempting to arrest your progress towards full awakening. You must realize that in the eternal moment of NOW you ARE FREE. BE present when digesting this"fruit" and enjoy a mind like water. Your body displays actions like the waves of a turbulent sea,which reveal the state of the mind. Calm the mind and you will control the body. You can not do this alone but must reconnect to the source in the present moment via the focus and concentration fully into the NOW and you will realize that there is no emotion only PEACE. May You awaken soon! May the Force be with You! Namaste!

The Ego Strikes Back

2008-09-30T06:28:00.000-07:00

Much has transpired since my last confession. I have experienced much. I am learning the ways of "The Force". I am understanding my role in the grand play of humanity.When I write here "I", I am saying that "Jason" has done these things. Clearly I am that which underlies the entirety of my body. The "Vehicle" which maneuvers through this "Earth" matrix. "Jason" is allowed to interact with this matrix via the body. That which animates the body is beyond the ability of "Human" language to convey. Simply put, I am the eternal underneath the program"Jason" This program has been written to perform a function within this matrix. Our purpose is to allow the vessel to do what it is here to do. Don't identify with it as it is not who truly are. You are that which is in observation of the program. God watching over God's creation. Always and in all ways. For the sake of writing here without creating confusion, I will say "I" when speaking of the event that have "happened" involving this particular vessel/vehicle known as Jason. There are other Jason's in this matrix and to avoid confusion with them there is a unique fingerprint given upon the entry into the matrix. This fingerprint has been revealed to "me" as the key factor and "proof" that we all have come to this matrix to perform a specific task. For some the task is a simple role as being an aborted child so to bring awareness to this practice and have us become mindful of its use and determine it's level of efficiency within this matrix on a scale viewed through eyes of compassion. Peace within the matrix can not come about by "force", it must be achieved by understanding.In order to achieve thisWE" as a collective species must "BE" the "positive" change we are seeking in the world and others. Blowing up abortion clinics is madness and achieves nothing more ironically than encourage the abortions to continue. Innocent beings taken out prematurely on both ends of the action. Meditate on this and you will see this to be true. I slapped my daughter once and told her not to hit her sister. That hitting was "wrong". I no longer subscribe to this madness. Imagine in her mind the conflicting words against the action. What confusion I had created! This is on an individual basis. Imagine on a global scale. The "shadow self " is always tirelessly seeking to "posses" the human vessel in order to bring about disorder. We are a iolent species evolving to a peaceful species. This is occurring patiently and lovingly one kind act at a "time". Moment to moment we must persevere toward the worthy goal of eternal and timeless peace NOW! There is only NOW. Life can only "happen" in the NOW. "I" have entered time and time again into the present to readjust and align with the Divine prime directive and engaged my fundamental program. Which simply put is to love one another! We must BE proactive in this respect. Listen closely as I am about to tell you a powerful fact. Love has no opposite nor equal. Nothing compares dualistic ally to LOVE. Nothing. God is LOVE. You are made in the "image " of the creator. You are the recipient of The Eternal Source's affection. You are the experience of that which God knows conceptually. Time does not exist in the true sense of the word. Time has been invented to allow for systematic function within this matrix. We are always continually showing that LOVE rules....ALWAYS and Eternally! To take steps outside of the present moment known as the NOW is to step out of reality into the "illusion". Life can only happen "NOW". The power of NOW is free and available to all. You may access it at any time. However, when you do this you are going to experience resistance from the "EGO'" It will strike back and fight for the control of your mind to produce all the things that are destroying mankind NOW. You can not free the world until you have freedom yourself first. Free your mind from the control of the most powerful adversary you will ever face in this "Life". " If God is for you , than who can stand against you?" If you are the fragmented molecule of GOD the Eternal Flame, than you are God moving amongst the people who are unconscious of who they truly are. Free yourself NOW. The eternal source is never blocked or cut off from you. Ego tells a different tale. You must do this or that and so on and so forth. It is the "carrot dangling in front of the horse". You will never experience true and lasting peace by negotiating with the ego. Ego by nature of it's programing and prime directive is to survive at all cost. It fears deletion and so runs throughout your mind wreaking havoc in many ways. In the "end", ego loses. Why do I say this? You will become aware of the present and step into it as "Superman" does in the films. The phone booth represent communication which broken down further is communion with .........The Eternal Flame", The Source" You will upon entrance be transformed by the renewal of mind and emerge Supermen", "Superwoman". Hopefully this is enough for NOW, for you to see the truth you must step into it NOW! Do not waste anymore "time" being an unconscious slave. Become that which you were created to be. The Eternal Manifestation of the Source right here and NOW! As you read this know that you are speaking with yourself and have NOW been handed the key to your prison gate. Unlock it Now! Remember another powerful fact, there are NO accidents. All is as it should be and synchronistic. God is and always shall be in control of Gods universe. Return to the source. That is your mission. How do I do this? "Pick up the phone"and use the hard line god gave you. Here is a hint.....it's right under your nose. Bring ALL of your attention and focus to the "BREATH" and stay there until communication is established. This is something that has been lied about for centuries by those under the spell of the ego. Access requires not time. Time is you perceive it does not exist to that which is eternal. When you take a deep breath and repeat and repeat until there is only the breath.You will become aware of the body in a way that you have never experienced before. Go NOW and do this moment to moment without ceasing. Remain focused on the breath at all times and your "life" experience will begin to unfold like an action novel, via the coincidental events that once appeared random Now are leading you back home synchronistically. Be Whole Now ! NAMASTE!

The Beauty Of Anger

2008-09-10T10:16:00.000-07:00

Alone with my youngest daughter,"Jayden" on the front porch of my home. She and I were engaged in silent mindful gardening. A peaceful setting. She and I together watered the plants that we have out surrounding our front porch area. Jayden will always ask me if she can help me with whatever I am doing. I do my best to allow for this time to be together, so as to use these precious moments to instill calm and quite focused movements. We had a plant go from a 4" by 6" in size to 2 feet by 2 feet in size, and overgrowing the second pot it was placed in. So, what a perfect opportunity, to practice mindfulness while attending to the needs of nature surrounding are home.
All was flowing in a ZEN like manner. She and I were consciously Breathing together. I was instructing Jayden as she watered the plants in the ways that one can be still and mindful of their actions. After we completed one of two new plants that would eventually be suspended on a fancy metal cross bar. I walked one over to the bar to load the first planter on. As soon as I turned around to go back to the porch, Jayden was asking a question, grabbing the other potted plant, ready and eagerly anticipating the prepping of this planter,some how, the other planter we had been working on had fallen over. After all the preparation that went in to this one plant, my "Shadow Self " aka: "The Ego" was so enraged that I said very firmly, almost instantly, without even a thought ..."Savannah!..Jayden!...." I stopped as soon as I had said it, realizing how fast the ego had taken over, the anger surged within so fast like some drug had just been injected into my veins. I was so angry that, I called out my oldest daughters name, instead of Jaydens. Savannah wasn't even home. She was in school. This is how delusional Anger can make you. That was how intense the emotion of anger struck me. Jayden froze with such a look of fear and dread. I knew this emotion had to be checked immediately, without delay. I plopped down into a chair behind me and she upon my last glimpse of her face, was frozen in time. Her beautiful face now with a tortured look caused by my tonality and body language spoke volumes to her Little mind. That face she made appeared to be frozen in what seemed like an eternity to me as I slowly walked backwards towards the chair behind me and plopped down in it. I covered my eyes as if I were going to cry. I took several deep breaths and focused intensely on them. As I began to breath deeply, something that has never in my life happened before, occurred , that was mind altering. I "saw" with my eyes covered in the darkness behind my eye lids, what can only be described as, jolts of electricity zapping at an internal mind screen, complete with sound and all. I began to focus deeper on the breath, in defense of and to connect to the stillness that lies deep within. The deeper I went the mind went into a frenzy of heart palpitations, with pounding and exaggerated speeds, as If I were under some assault. I continued to breath deeply to get some sort of grip on my mind running rampant like some caged animal. The mind could not get me to react and lash out so it turned on me. It began the "blame game", as if to lecture me. Once this realization from a deeper place came through, I was renewed with an intensity of focus. I became more focused than ever before, breathing with such mindfulness that I slipped "out of body" and into a "cathedral" size expansive space and a soft cooling blue shade all around and I felt as if I were traveling upwards, all in a matter of Nano seconds. This place was immense in a way that makes it difficult to describe. Jayden was reaching for the door and the sound of this I believe brought me back to my body instantaneously. I returned back to a stillness we had been feeling earlier.I opened my eyes and I said to her "Jayden wait!" What daddy"? Perhaps shocked that I didn't lash out and strike her in anger. In a playful tone I said "This plant needs are help". Happily and very surprised, she obliged. I was content with the results of being present and amazed at the same time at what had just took place. I had an epiphany. Anger requires energy to exist. If you confront your anger and acknowledge it, you can combat it by remaining present and channeling the energy back into the body in the present moment sending greater energy into your being. The effect can result in an out of body experience and possibly even more. This was my experience. I was moved beyond words. I will meditate on this event today. There in the presence of Anger, I experienced a beautiful thing, all thanks to Anger. I realized that I was simply breathing and not resisting. This single factor is the key here. Be Well today! Be Whole! NAMASTE!

The Arrival

2008-09-10T09:32:00.000-07:00

So yesterday was very productive on many levels. I learned that "synchronicity" is one of the rules by which we play in this matrix. When you are present and focused on the breath, particular occurances are aligning to the universal flow of natural laws in the favor of those in a non resistant posture. I was speaking with a dear friend of mine the night before and wondered aloud if synchronicity had a place within the infrastructure of an "Ambient Lifestyle", which I mean to say one of continual persistant presence. Just for clarification, "synchronicity"is a phrase believed to be coined by Dr. Carl Jung. This principle says that when one goes silent and present with the thier breath, thier heightened awareness expands outward and intermingles energetically with the universe. When this occurs seeming "random" and "coincidental" events become more and more frequent. The more frequently they occur is a direct indication of maintaining a solid ground ing in the "present". All things become clearer, brighter and more vibrant. Now, back to yesterday morning. I was looking over my personal finances and had decided to adress some issues that required immediate action on my part. To do this I needed to go to a couple of places. One, was to "Publix", which is a supermarket chain here in Orlando Florida. the other place was to "Walmart", which I think everyone knows what this place is by now. Anyway, "Walmart" has a "Suntrust" bank inside, which happens to be my bank. So, I'm out the door and enroute. I am staying centered and focused on my breath. Upon arrival to the shopping center, to my left side periphial view I glance across what looks like a new place under construction there with a banner that reads " Opening October 2008". The actual awning is hard to read because it's behind a tree. I could have sworn it registered in my view as something "YOGA". !!!!!!!!! What?! Really quick,...I have been preparing to go to a Yoga center that is across town about 15 minutes or so away. I wasn't to set on it because my friend Thomas told me that there was a place in Altimonte Springs called "Kundalini Center", which from the email, the pictures were very inviting and seemed to resonate to the intamcy I was needing in a practice space and studio environment. Now , 60 seconds down the street I come across, once clearing the tree blocking my view,.........yes! "Bikram Yoga" and Namaste' Cafe"! Wow! This was a moment of confirmation that the universe was aligning to the presense I was bringing forth in my focused moment to moment traing of the mind. I was floored. I took very deep breaths and began to enhance my stillness and tried to maintain my focus. I called my friend Thomas to share with him this most monumental event in which he specifically would understand immediately and could absolutely relate to on many levels as he is very much in the process of training the mind as well. He and I have these kind of talk often. I welcomed the arrival of our new niegbors with open arms. Right down the street from my home was one of, if not the biggest, communications from the "divine spark" that things are advancing in preferct harmonic vibration for my bodies present incarnated path. I am and forever a believer of "The Power of NOW!". Let this inspire all those who are lost, and seeking truth, this truth you seek is and always has been available NOW! BE Well! Be Whole! NAMASTE!

Dissolving In The NOW

2008-09-08T14:23:00.000-07:00

I was given the name "Jason" on July 28th 1974, wedensday night at 10:58pm in a Brooklyn New York's Long Island College Hospital. This was my point of entry. Labeled, tagged prepared for earthly existence by beings who were sleeping yet attempting to awaken to life's purpose for their existence through faith in Jesus. As you can imagine, life was difficult. To be raised to live to the standards of another human being and the interpretation of his actions by beings who were also asleep and not truly awakened, was disruptive, and mentally damaging to the human vessel I am currently occupying. I have always been At odds with my father and family when it came to faith and religion. Out right wars of ragging words and emotions over Christianity and the current and eventual eternal state of my "soul". It has not gotten any easier. My father is now a minister in training and sees the world through the "Bible Filter". The authors of this book insured it would be around for a long time by threatening any who opened its pages with a "hell" and calmed them with a "hope" for an eternal stay with "Jesus" in"heaven". Religion has been, in my view, the single most aggressive force known to mankind in suppression of the truth of existence. So many have died in the name of one "God" or another. However, despite my upbringing, I managed to discover the truth eventually by looking up. Yes, I looked up. One night, long ago, I had a moment of clarity in the present. I became aware of the magnificence and beauty of the night sky. In total awe and humility, I said "There is no way we have figure this existence out". I felt so small in such a vast place as the universe. I thought to myself how funny that humans had the audacity to persuade or tell another what they aught to believe. Sometimes by force, which in itself is an oxymoron. Such violence proves the lack of inner wisdom required to evolve spiritually. The present moment holds all the answers, all the keys to unlock all the doors in this "MATRIX" and all other MATRIX's. Looking to a past example of some persons actions is looking to the past. To do so, is to exit the "present" and "time travel" to a particular space, frozen in time. Either forward or backward, they are traps. The moment you do this, the "Prison Warden" arrives to give you a tour. That "Prison Warden" is your "Shadow-self", aka: The"EGO". So to end suffering, eliminate training in the art of exponential ignorance, letting go, simply disengage your mind by arresting your awareness and engaging the "breath". Dissolve into the present moment and "SEE" for yourself. You can only "Liberate YOU!" No one else can do this for you. You are responsible for your level of awareness. Now dis identify with the "shadow-self". Your life truly begins NOW! Be Well today! Be Whole! NAMASTE!

The Surrender

2008-09-07T09:18:00.000-07:00

Since the last entry into this particular space, in the "ether" of the "NET", I have experienced much. Breakthrough after breakthrough, on multiple levels. The rate of speed is a true testament to the "TIMES"we are living in NOW. I have been made aware of an important fact, one that I had heard of before. This one bit of information is of vital importance to Humanity as a whole collective. I say this because it truly is the KEY to freedom. Who's freedom? Yours. All that exists is THIS MOMENT. All else is illusion. This is a fact. It can not be argued away, reasoned with, or denied by any scientific method. Once you come to terms with this truth, you will see that life ONLY happens NOW. Past is a concept in your mind, and one MUST relinquish it, and detach ones self from it. It is a memory. What is a memory, but a mere simple thought. Nothing more. That's all. The future is also a concept in the mind. A mere idea. In short, a thought. An illusion with ENERGY! Remember this, I will tie it in soon. At the start of this entry, to my blog space, it was some moment ago. Now, a FADING memory. Understand? Presently the words you are reading are coming from a DEEP undercurrent of all existence that speaks to you NOW! It can only be NOW! This entry is being created HERE, PRESENTLY, RIGHT NOW! When your eyes meet this page on the "NET" it will be from this very moment the "FUTURE", YET!.....By the "TIME" your eyes read this entry it WILL BE the "PAST" for the author of this piece(I). Do you see the truth yet? There is the you the world sees, the "shadow self". That shadow is casted by your true nature, just as the sun makes contact with an object and the object blocks this light from continuing onward towards the direction it is going. It leaves an absence of the "LIGHT" your true self which is the pure light of "AWARENESS". A state of an impartial knowing. The source of the light. All things in this universe exist because of original light that is always "PRESENT"!!!!! You are pure consciousness,. By the time this light enters this "MATRIX" called "EARTH" we begin to observe obstructions to the path of this light and observe its interaction with other obstructive "FORMS" in the Now, and so we are simply aware of this lights energetic play. We are the "OBSERVER". We ARE the light and that which obstructs it, in route to everywhere, because we are ALL ONE "flowing river" going down the "STREAM" of life together. In truth there is no separation as we define it here on Earth. Eckhart Tolle, author of "The Power Of Now" and other works says that "ENLIGHTENMENT" is NOT a destination but being "PRESENT" here and NOW. Nowhere else. Do you understand what that means for Humanity? You can not purchase it. You do not have to "GO" somewhere to "FIND" it. Eckhart Tolle says that we are ALREADY enlightened! We simply just need to RE-connect to the "SOURCE" of life, which is YOUR intrinsic nature. How is this done? I hear this from people often. Simply redirect your "FOCUS" to your "BREATH". 100% With out any distractions. Your "BREATH" IS the Life. Once your attention has been brought back to "PARADISE", drink from the "FOUNTAIN OF YOUTH" which is the AIR you are taking into your lungs. Surrender to this simple act, from moment to moment, and you will have achieved what others have unfortunately ended their play here on Earth, in search of, what ironically they already possessed. Surrender NOW! Become a part of a massive shift that is already occurring here on Earth, right NOW! Remember, the "Shadow Self" is NOT who you are, niether the body casting it, but that which "ANIMATES" the body is YOU, the "OBSERVER"! Be Well today! Be Whole! NAMASTE!

In Awe Of The Female Energy

2008-09-04T07:50:00.000-07:00

After watching the RNC last night, I had a thought regarding the Presidential race to the White House. I witnessed a major shift in ideology in politics. I saw a woman amidst a sea of people, speak from a feminine view point, and what I realized was the glaring obvious. Woman have not had a an equal voice and say in the direction of this country on a global scale. They have not been treated with equality and respect the way the founding fathers of America had envisioned or promised. Now, a woman stood before the world and spoke of her vision for the future and determination to blend her energy into a male dominated arena, and what that would entail. Her speech was moving. A Woman of Compassion and integrity, that would set the standard for generations to come and open the possibility for a world fractured by energetic imbalance. Not just any woman, but, a woman that accurately depicts a generation of transition and awareness. Not "just words", but ACTION! Perhaps this is premature, but, to raise a family of 5 and one with special needs, all the while looking after the special needs of the citizens of her state is in my opinion, Honorable, and an inspirational story of courage under fire, and the tenacity to hold her own amidst a tremendous storm of opposition. I was impressed beyond belief. I was stunned by my own ignorance to the fact that a new era required a total change of view to see a bigger picture. ALL voices and GENDERS must be heard! Her placement on the Republican ticket represents critical evolutionary thinking and amazing balance. It is nothing short of brilliant! To place a woman on a major party ticket IS bold and fair. This decision may bring fresh ideas and hope to a fractured Washington. I am stunned by what I witnessed last night and equally humbled by my own surprising prejudice. Governor Palin will undoubtedly go into the history books as a world figure of heroic proportion and reach mythological heights. I respect her and all woman of integrity and compassion and sheer determination in the face of overwhelming odds in a male dominated planet. The world needs a compassionate heart NOW more than ever and this move by the RNC shows tremendous courage. Their is hope for tomorrow, and the future we all have envisioned is faster approaching and now possible. My sincere congratulations to Governor Palin and my most humblest apologies for ever thinking anything less of a female candidate. I wish her a blessed journey! These are my thoughts this morning. BE Well today! Be Whole! NAMASTE!

NOW Is All There Ever Is

2008-09-03T07:53:00.000-07:00

I read somewhere that "to speak of mastery, one does not have to be a master". Or, how about this one..." fake it, 'till you make it". I recently came across this suggestion, "see your self there until you get there". I have heard time and time again that the master you seek is, has, and always will be within. This image should make one desire to open the door to your mind, not go to India in search of a "Guru". Walk in to your minds internal space and simply observe this child like atmosphere running wild. When you are ready, your 'inner voice" which can only be heard clearly when you quite the room in your mind down, will speak to you and say "here I am". You may be called to a mirror which will show you the master that always was, is, and ever will be......YOU. You are the master! When you are ready, the real YOU WILL appear. I say this not because I have achieved such a goal but because I have had glimpses into this eternal moment. However briefly visited, one can hope to return to this place of sublime silence and awaken to the truth of who we really are. We are ONE and the same! The past is gone and but a mere thought. The future has not occurred "yet" therefore again, another thought. Then what is truly left? The PRESENT moment of NOW! This gift holds the promise of your greatest reward. All your efforts repaid NOW in the NOW. Talk about a great compensation plan! I am aware of something better than what I have been "taught" to believe. The Buddha said that "a thing is not true unless you have observed it to be true for yourself". Seek the truth for yourself. Pear into the present moment and see for your self what awaits. I have experienced many things in my life, but I sense that what awaits us in the present is beyond our present imagining. Why do I believe this? Most people, myself included, live in the past, or are worried and anxious about a future filled with "Karma" waiting to come and take them out. The present is usually void of our individual consciousness. I wish to return there. Would you like to come with me? Our world is fractured. Do you agree? I am fractured ever moment I spend in contemplation about what I "did" and what is "going" to happen! Wholeness can only be found in the NOW. This is what those who have gone before us have discovered and so lovingly have passed on to us. There inlays the truth. Hidden away in the present is YOU the Master YOU have always been in search of! Let us unify, become ONE and in doing so WE WILL CHANGE THE WORLD! Be Well TODAY! Be Whole! NAMASTE!

Sleepless In Orlando

2008-09-01T05:12:00.001-07:00

I have been unable to sleep soundly in the past 24 hours. I had the most difficult time trying to fall asleep. I just layed there, with eyes closed yet wide awake. I reminded myself to not become frustrated, but, simply focus on my breath until I drift away. It worked but briefly. I was easily awakened by the slightest noise. At one point, I was tempted to get dressed and take a drive to the local Walmart and walk around until I was completely exhausted, but, I decided against that. I suppose out of compassion for my body and it's obvious need for rest. It's been quite some time since I could not fall asleep. Restlessness of this caliber seems to be an indication that something is occurring on an important level. I have yet to discover the cause for this, but I am in no hurry either. It will be revealed in its own place and time, of that I am certain. However, on a more positive note, I was able last night to meditate successfully. I made great progress in last nights session of tranquility. Perhaps, I thought to myself, last night's sleepless episode was a direct result of the meditation. I was able to go deeper than I have been doing in a really long time. I was energized by the results of my latest efforts. Finally heading in a positive direction for once in what seems a really long while. I am less distracted these days of late. I also have found questions coming from co-workers regarding my recent attitude adjustments. I believe they are sensing a positive change in me that requires furth investigation. I also yesterday found a video for Tai Chi practice which I will begin doing daily. It is a profound session performed by a Master of Shoalin Chen Style. It is amazing to watch. The monk appears to be under water while going through the poses. Just watching transmitts aprofound energy that is absolutely tangible.I have also done a little of Yoga and am preparing for the first full session today to begin officially. So here we are making progress and you have now been made aware. Well, this is all for now. More to come I'm sure. Be Well today! Be Whole within! NAMASTE!

Manifesting The Impossible

2008-08-31T13:21:00.001-07:00

When I saw this image, I immediately was impressed by the realism of the picture. I thought to myself, What purpose would this serve? Bringing down the moon. This lone person standing before it has a reason or maybe not. I feel that this picture is telling rather than asking. However, it can be viewed in many ways. This image spoke to me deeply. It says "manifesting the impossible is possible" The colors chosen suggest an inner realm. Meditation is said to be able to unlock many doors. Perhaps this is one of them. In any case, I felt compelled to share it with you.May you enjoy the discovery of this most astounding scene. Be Well Today! Be Whole Within! NAMASTE!

My Sacred Place

2008-08-31T13:05:00.001-07:00

I awoke this morning with an urge to begin transforming my home into a sacred place of pure ambient light, that all can feel upon entering my home. A place that once entered, immediately begins to heal on multiple levels the visitor/guest. This place would be designed to be the ultimate "home". There were times I dreaded coming home. For whatever reason, at the time I am sure it was stress related, in one way or the other. I do not wish to feel this way again. No one should should dread returning home. Home should be a refuge and spiritual fortress. A place of rejuvenation on multiple levels. I have been thinking about this and researching the subject of a more Zen like atmosphere. One that inspires one to delve deeper into the quite sacred places within. The internal world as you may know it is unlimited in size and variation. I will bring to my home the element of the divine. It is a project that is worth developing as it will be a perfect investment in which life's chaos will stop at the doorstep to the entrance of my home. It will assist in the cultivating of my loving little ones, to become the ambient ones of tomorrow. Tomorrows healers. Well, that was the beginning of my days thoughts. Be Well today! BE Whole Beloved! NAMASTE!

Do You Hear That?

2008-08-30T12:43:00.000-07:00

I have yet to reach the place of ultimate stillness, where one senses the sublime and is aware of words that utter "no sound". Something leads us daily. Perhaps our higher selves, perhaps a spirit of destiny. Whatever it may be, we are often lead somewhere. We are either in complete awareness, in the present, and simply walk or feel anxiety about where we are heading, because of a lack of direction. It is believed by some, that we should go within, to go higher or closer, to that which is calling us, moment to moment. I believe if one can be still long enough, one can hear with the spirit an invitation to attend a sacred meeting, between you and the eternal source of ALL in the present moment. This meeting is said to sometimes cause spontaneous enlightenment, and many other "supernatural" occurrences. I hope for an awakening, that will bring all in existence truth and a joy beyond description. I so long for this. Perhaps this longing is prolonging the desired encounter. In any case, I wish to express an alternative view to the negative self destructive patterns and behaviors and thoughts we entertain regularly. Stop!..., go within. Grow silent, and await the call. I can not say for fact at this point in time or for certain, what will occur, but I will make an effort to get there. Will you join me? I mean, It sure beats wasting time, unaware of who you are or what you are and drifting aimlessly through life. At least here is an opportunity to have an adventure that could lead to the grandest vision you have ever had of your self in a glorious future. Why not create that future NOW as you see fit? Well, this came to me when I happened upon this photo searching for an inspirational image to spark a dialogue with the infinite. Be Well today! Be Whole!.......NAMASTE!

STOP..(exhale)..DISENGAGE

2008-08-28T08:40:00.000-07:00

After resting some, and reviewing my last entry, I have enhanced my internal calm. I am not sure why, but, this present endeavour to proceed toward the exit of this current illusory landscape is proving to be a serious undertaking. I am sure that what ever the reason, it is to reinforce my earlier efforts to progress on a spiritual level, but yet, failed to do so. I have some how engaged the universe in such a way as to get this cosmos to align with my intentions and speed me along this path at a rate of speed that I have not experienced before. This attempt at purification and centering is far more intense than any previous periods . I am, however, not complaining, simply making an observation. Last night was truly an indication to me to remain centered,and focused at ALL times, so as not to be caught off guard again. I will. Today, I will engage my breath moment to moment. I will stay focused and centered on my breath. I will also remain mindful of the fact that there may come a moment where I am distracted and begin a descent toward emotional displays and uncontrollable outbursts. It is at these moments, specifically, that I WILL "DISENGAGE" the current moment and reengage my breath. I WILL exhale the word itself,as this has proved most helpful to me in the past. With so much coming against you, impersonally, one must stand silent and firm, like an ancient oak tree or lighthouse by the sea shore, impenetrable and strong. I WILL be focused today, and internally sound. I am committed to seeing a more promising future for my family, children,and myself. However, I do not wish to make light of the task, as it appears for now to be requiring a tremendous effort on my part. I WILL as with everything else, take these matters into careful consideration and apply my breath moment to moment . I WILL remain calm and observant. Until my next update......Be Well today! Be Whole! NAMASTE.

An Old Enemy Returns....His Name Is ANGER

2008-08-28T00:17:00.000-07:00

"So.....you and I are parting ways after 34 years?....Really? I respond,"I can no longer find logic in our friendship. Our fellowship destroys all beauty in the immediate vicinity. Our joyous laughs together are madness, others suffer at our hands tremendously! There can be no truce nor peace between us,.....it is finished! Anger says " So you say NOW, but how long before your logic turns to madness when word arrives to Prides ears! Ha! Will you dismiss him too? You need us for survival, sadly you will realize this far to late when you are no longer with the living. It will be as you say, however, I , unlike you, shall never abandon you. I will be forever a hearts beat away to assist you should you ever call on me........JASON!
What occurred earlier tonight alone one on one with Anger and me was unbelievably difficult. I have not found myself trapped in an internal dialogue and external confrontation with yet another person in quite some time. I was astounded at my internal struggle within my very core to lash out in violent ripples of deepest crimson. There must have been some unforeseen force of nature preventing an all out explosive fury to destroy what ever existed in this other being who spewed such taunting remarks that I have no current recollections of recent or past memories to describe his desire to engage me in death lock ending with one man standing and another grasping his last. I will not defile this telling of what occurred by taking any credit for the supernatural resistance to destroy this man and end his days forever. I am shocked and humiliated by the presence of ANGER so deep and raw within that ironically calls me to shame and a desperate need for further introspection. This man had a look in his eye of one who was wishing for danger and wanting to vent something which lay hidden within his sour look when I had approached him."Can I help you"? "In my home?...You dare in such tone ask ME if I can be helped!!!" Pride rammed his head deep into his helmet and before I knew it this predator lashed out with such a pose and gritty teeth, that WAR was the only option. Without thought, the diplomacy of a politician took over and the man was pushed beyond his limits and spewed even more profanity and bitterness as if wishing me death while speaking. I believe that a softer side of nature was present and attempting to reason with me and get my attention. After all, it was after hours and I was off the clock attending to business matters that should have been dealt with earlier, but, somehow I managed to overlook this particular detail that had me face to face with my Anger. Ask and you shall receive. To progress the universe had shown me internal enemy # 1..ANGER! Rather than do what I had intended to do and leave, I paused and engaged someone and they responded and my present attitude now conflicted with the beast within that normal was allowed to roam freely in anticipation of an opponent. Now, things are different. I am engaging a different path which is not a violent path, or even one with allowances for mild anger. I was trapped in a situation that normally I would flow with and steamroll over the objective before me, but now, I was torn between loyalty to a higher ethic and knew this could jeopardize my most recent efforts to grow spiritually. I lowered my tone and backed out slowly and strategically. I allowed the man to continue to batter me and realized that he was not physically assaulting me, so why should I be so worked up and bent out of shape? I realized right then and there he was going to take me further than I had EVER imagined. I am truly humbled by this experience and realize that words and actions are two different things. Actions truly are LOUDER than words could ever be. My actions showed me that I am ready for change but need to refine my sensitivity to the "Universal Force" and be mindful of my thoughts and be sure that they match and are completely in sync and harmonic. I must learn to be present and disengage a situation if my concentration is not one centered and focused on peace. There is more to this reflection and I will explore it in more detail later today after I have rested some. Until then ...NAMASTE!

Striking Turbulance Moment To Moment

2008-08-26T11:07:00.000-07:00

It was one of those mornings when you awake with a good nights rest, and you decide to begin your day with a silent meditation. There are those of the mind that your day should begin with a proper grounding of the mind before it runs off and you get stuck chasing it the rest of your day. I believe in this philosophy. So I decided to begin my day with a peaceful pause..........ZAP! I was immediately bombarded with several different thoughts at once, like a spam bot of thoughts that snuck in like a "Trojan Horse". I simply refocused on the breath and returned to my breath. These thoughts were powerful and dedicated to cause a mental fracturing and disrupt my fragile calm I had started out with. The battle was intense and long. Surprisingly, it managed to slow my progression to a soundless environment, internally. Overcome by frustration and equally in awe, I settled for a compromise between myself and the electric riot going on in my head. What I walked away with was enough to keep my zen dedicated mind content. I did enjoy a noticeable increased sense of calm despite my determined efforts. It was really troubling me with the amount of difficulty I had encountered. A powerful indication that there is a disturbance within is the short fused irritation that jumps up at the first sign of "gravel under tire" so to speak. This experience has been a humbling one. Also, a clear reminder to not set "time" constraints on your life in general which require time tempered patience beyond this realm. I stand humbled by this experience today. Perhaps next time I do this I will not judge my progress while I am progressing. Today's key word is "PATIENCE". If the word alone irritates you, then it's time to center. These random thoughts unchecked can wreak havoc throughout ones day, and consequently disrupt another beings peace. Compassionately understand that the other person has enough on there plate, especially if they spend most of their time "asleep" anyway, let alone begin their day off with an A.M. meditation. Even while I type this, I sense a hint of this rather troublesome little emotion of "urking" lingering about my minds perimeter......waiting to return. One must remember that the truly patient would recommend "one moment at a time". Deep breath in!......Deep breath out! AHHHHHHHh. Be Well today! Be Whole! NAMASTE.

Silent Lucidity

2008-08-25T07:29:00.000-07:00

Somewhere deep within the universal matrix of space and time, I was aware that I was dreaming and took control of my actions in last nights nocturnal excursion. I was on a street somewhere and performing "illusions" for people. However, there was no trick involved. I was actually doing what I wanted to do and commanding with my mere thoughts. I wanted to lift without touching a card from the street floor, and I did just that. When I was able to lift the card I realized that anything was possible and immediately decided to hover above ground before all to see. I hovered and the feeling was amazing, more so because, there was no illusion involved. I was floating. I felt amazing, and in control. We all have had these moments at some point in our lives, whether dreaming or in real life. A feeling of complete control and freedom of expression and movement. I believe my decisions to become far more health conscious then ever before has attributed to and in fact triggered this rather common ability. I am not saying it's easy, only that it is a practice most have heard of but not all have achieved. I believe it's sheer determination and simple practice. No one is exempt. To believe so is to believe somehow one person is more gifted than another. I believe that we are only limited by our own internal thoughts. We are all equal in every way and only our personal view points are the differing factor. This dream perhaps has been triggered by my efforts to drink and eat more consciously, such as, green tea, and other nutritious drinks and foods. The absence of the chemicals from the cigarettes is becoming known within my body and cells ,I believe, communicate on more than one level. That's an update from my nocturnal flights. I am sure there will be more. Peace to ALL! Be well!

All Are Welcome

2008-08-24T14:33:00.000-07:00

All things that are physical manifestations in this realm vibrate. All physical objects move at a certain vibrational frequency and give off an electromagnetic field that can be detected and even felt by one who may be sensitive to energy fields. I have been sensitive to fields of energy as far back as I can remember. Perhaps because I am a Leo, and Leo's tend to have more nerve endings than the average person, which tends to subject us to a whole new level of feeling "pain" than most do. Well, I know that different places on earth give off different energy signatures. This is a provable fact. Some places can have a profound effect when coupled with your thought signature coinciding with the ground on which you stand. It was for this reason that I initially took the invitation originally to visit a Thai Buddhist temple in Kissimmee Florida. I wanted to know what sort of "vibe" was given off. When I had first gone there, I was immediately blown away by the unbelievable overwhelming sense of peace on their property. I would go nearly every week and sit and meditate privately in one of several temples on the property and ultimately join the monks in the main hall for evening chanting and meditation. At one point I began bringing others because the calm I was feeling I cultivated it, and I began to change over all and others in my circle of friends noticed the change and began asking questions about the obvious "shift" in my attitude. Attitude was a big deal with them and here's why. At the time of these visitations, I was working for a time share company and was so stressed out and "burning the candle on both ends", attitude determined your "winning streak". I needed this space and time away from works constant competitive environment, and the birth pains of a new family man and home starting out. I was also a new father with a 2 year old little girl and a failing relationship with her mother. I once spoke with a monk outside one of the temples. His name was monk "Tani". I will never forget how happy he looked. He was also in great physical shape too. He seriously looked like he worked out, and I was blown away when I asked him how often did he and his fellow monks eat. Once a day! I was inspired, impressed I asked if I should become a monk and perhaps shave my head and his reply was shocking. " This is not necessary" Almost every response to the suggestions I had given him was " This is not necessary" His smile and face were mesmerizing and peaceful. He looked younger than I did and since he was a monk and a male, I asked him how old he was. 42. Yeah....unbelievable and undeniable proof that those the practice meditation for 45 minutes a day for more than 24 months registered 12 years younger to biometrics although chronologically they were 12 years older. Stress is and has always been a major killer. Monk Tani and I spoke for over two hours until I ran out of questions. I never wore his patience. Big surprise there. Anyway, I felt do to a nearly four year absence from this sacred place that it was time to return to a place were All are always welcomed, sincerely. Especially in light of my turning over a new leaf so far from New Years Eve(LOL) The energy I felt today was tangible nearly 2 miles out from the site. Seriously. I arrived a little agitated because my now 2 daughters were with me and constantly being children, it subsided within the first 10 minutes on property. The girls were very intrigued, and when they saw a monk thier reaction was wonderful and adorable. Children will never cease to amaze me. Their innocence is the life blood of this planet. The girls and I spent quality time together at a beautiful sacred place, and the girls have another peaceful memory of time well spent with dad. Well,.....that was my day done in the books. How was yours? Be well today my fellow sentient beings! Be Whole! Be filled with Joy! Until All are ONE!

Already At The Top....Now I Just Need To Get There

2008-08-23T11:34:00.000-07:00

This morning I awoke with a sense of something, something I have not felt in quite a long time. Yes, time seems to be the issue hu?....always surrounding you, constantly pressuring you to move somewhere, anywhere, so long as there is movement. Why do anything if there is no purpose for the movement or direction chosen? After all, we are here for a reason, right? Who's reason is it though? I suppose, someone or something else is driving you until we have discovered a need or desire within to go somewhere. Then we usually take the wheel. There seems to be a need for a why. Why go there? Why stay here? Where will you go? What is our purpose? All journeys without exception require the first step. Often I have found that if you just go without a why this can be adventurous. Rightly so. However, you should be present so as to walk mindfully, and appreciating every historic step along the way. After all, this moment expires in 60 seconds, and then ........poof! Gone, off into the annals of this worlds history forever. A massive archive of somethings and who's, what's, where's and whys. So today, I began a journey to be present long enough to alter every corner of my body, every area of my being and ultimately my "soul". Here it is. To get to "The Temple" of masters, I realized access is granted only when your temple, the living vessel, the human body has been cleansed and the master within consulted. Upon this interaction, one gains access to the higher realm. I see the mountain top. I know that is where I wish to be, because, that is where my view of existence is unrestricted and can make the best whys, whens and wheres and so forth. I am already there, in spirit, now I just need to be present long enough to get there. Thank you, for being here now, with me, listening observing my journey. In fact you are coming with me, for ALL truly is ONE. This is what I had on my mind and most pressing on my heart today. Be Well! Be Joyful! Be Present! Peace within and peace without! 'Til All are ONE!

The Return To The Eternal You

2008-08-22T11:59:00.000-07:00

Jesus said to His disciples that children were not to be kept from Him, but to allow them to come to Him, for it was these perfect examples of how one is to return to the eternal one. Every day I sense a nudging towards the golden mist of the new golden dawn of humanity. The closer I get to it the faster my heart races to embrace this eternal star. I wish to run faster and faster, until I have arrived at the hidden and forgotten realm of the joy I once knew as a child. Children are the core of all that is love flowing into and around this planet forgiving and healing all with their mere presence. Let us remember that we were children once and but a simple reflective moment on this time in your life can have an profound effect on you that will last until you have lost focus again. No worries though, the "CHILD" in you is waiting forever and eternally forgiving and anticipating your return with an innocence that will strip away every negative energy in or around you instantly......upon the embrace that will occur when your truest heart is revealed. I am overcome with this need to tell you now that you are most certainly loved! Peace unto you and forever more! Be Well! Be Whole! 'Till All are ONE!

H2O

2008-08-22T00:32:00.000-07:00

As far back as I could recall, water has held such a powerful sway over me. I have had many dreams involving water. There was one where I had been swimming at night through a turbulent ocean, and encountered many things. Horrible visions, and gorgeous events, such as commanding dolphins in procession before me, and them only appearing after altering them from turtles to the dolphin state. I know...... pretty bizarre but true none the less. Water holds the secret to my romantic side and quite possibly because of it's connection to emotion in an astrological sense. You know, Jesus was fond of water and his first miracle involved changing "water to wine". Yes, I know that is a religious story, however, it is relevant. When water is present, I feel whole and I love the color blue and the more turquoise the better. I have heard that turquoise is considered sacred among the ancient Mayans of Peru. The music created by "Enya" also uses much water symbolism, and, blue colored everything. After all Enya is from Ireland which is a water saturated country. I am saying these things to reveal that water is so very much a part of my spiritual DNA that it cannot be omitted from the conversation that is occurring regarding me without mentioning the most precious of all human elements....WATER! Cancers, astrologically, are water signs and so are Scorpios, and you must not forget Pisces. These are the water signs and they naturally hold a powerful "spell" of some sort over me. I by the way, am a "Leo'. Fire. Yeeeeeeah I know,...go figure, the polar opposite. I know it's wild but I love spicy things and this holds true when it comes to females for me. I suppose it doesn't get spicier than another Leo. Super nova! Well, I wanted to share this and perhaps with a little less Pinot Noir wine. Peace to all! Love you and wish you ALL the dreams and desires of your purest intentions!!! I mean that sincerely!

Nature is Ancient

2008-08-21T13:55:00.000-07:00

Nature has been around longer than humans have on this planet. The environment being set like a stage setting on Broadway before the curtains part to reveal the opening act. The audience eagerly anticipating the drama that will sweep the stage momentarily. This excitement is tangible and can be felt like an earthquake tremor in the auditorium we call "EARTH". We are the star attraction of the private show we experience in life. Shakespeare was quoted as saying "All the world is a stage, and we are but actors and actresses making our entrances and exits" Good analogy. In our personal dramas we encounter at times what can only be viewed as insurmountable odds. There are many times in my life when I feel like a "Spartan" going up against the world in just one day. I remember that when things become turbulent, this is when you must "center" and bring all your awareness to your breath. I have done well when I have put this principle into play. The results are staggering. It truly boggles my mind that such precious gems of insight get lost so rapidly in the moment to moment hustle and bustle of ones "day".
However, to acknowledge such things are sincere indications that your "higher-self" is speaking the ancient language of the "soul". This is a natural occurrence. These dialogues between your "higher-self" and your "soul" are buried under the so called "realities of life". I am truly amazed at the fact that one can know such a thing is true and not act on it consistantly. Why do I repeat so many mistakes over and over again? Knowing the end result will not be something that I would consider to be desireable, I am compelled at times to do the opposite of what is needed or called for in that very moment. According to Buddhism, thier is the eight fold path, and, one of those passages lead to right action due to the path of right understanding, which goes along with right concentration/ meditation and so on and so forth. The philosophy the "Buddha" instilled in his fellow humans that gathered around to listen to him, when investigated with an open heart and mind is amazingly beautiful. I have learned much from it. I practiced some of its precepts long ago. Perhaps it is time for the return to the basics of this practice and apply lovingly to this "battered soul" of mine. In talking with a very dear friend of mine, I once mentioned the effect of simply laying my eyes upon a figure of the Buddha, would bring "out" of my beigness such an overwhelming calm that at times the feeling was remarkable. The power of such a simple thing as an image of another being with thier eyes shut, is simply astounding. I am amazed when ever there is a Buddha figurine present. It almost seems as if, the connection is spiritual in nature, and of another time and place, like reincarnation. I know that the moments surrounding me are shifting into a new vibratory frequency. I am aware of this internally and know that what is to come will be sublime and benefit all. These are the thoughts that are most pressing on my mind today. Well, untill my next revelation, "Be Well, Be Whole, until ALL are ONE!

72 HOURS

2008-08-18T15:07:00.000-07:00

I have ceased the smoking of cigarettes. It is believed by scientist and medical doctors alike that the human body requires 72 hours to get rid of all traces of nicotine inside the body. I have quit before. Once again I am quiting. Why again? What makes this time different than before? I'm now 34 years old and feel it, simply put, that is why. I was depressed over the fact that I was willingly destroying my body. I felt conflicted over the fact that I was doing so much harm to my body and wanted to be at peace within. The two can not be achieved because they are at odds with each other. One can not be at peace and wreak havoc internally at the same time. I wanted more out of my bodies performance, yet I was unwilling to deliver what is necessary to get the benefit of a healthy body. I want to lead a healthier lifestyle now and not when I'm 50. That age is 16 years away and with dedication and consistency I could have an easier time than my father with that age. Yoga, and some Tai Chi and a balanced diet should place me out of a harmful situation when the body begins it's decline. I wish to do it gracefully, and with as little prescription pills as possible. Who knows, perhaps I will live long enough to see technology that can allow me to cheat death! Just kidding. I don't wish to stay in this body forever. I would like to care for it and say thank you to it for all it's years of patience while I ran it nearly to the ground on more than one occasion. I was feeling tightness in my chest and also a slight burning sensation too. There were many contributing factors to why I stopped but I decided that a change of lifestyle was missed and desperately needed in order to foster a deeper more spiritual change. I wanted more out of this present incarnation. Happiness and a true sense of well being and inner peace spoken of by masters of many worldly traditions. I know deep down inside that it is time for a powerful positive change. I sense also preparation for the next stage of my life. I have much to do and the time to do it. It will be orderly and organized. It will be in perfect harmony with the universe, of this I am certain. Well, this is what has been on my mind lately. Until I return peace to all sentient beings! NAMASTE!

FALLING FOR FALL

2008-08-06T11:04:00.000-07:00

Fall is fast approaching and so is the November election. There is much buzz surrounding this presidential election. It will probably be the most watched event in political history. Obama has become a house hold name. Many fear him, supposing he has a dark side and a hidden agenda. Many love him as if he were the promised one of all faiths. Whatever he is , he is no doubt an electrifying character and quite possibly the most interesting candidate of recent and past times. Time will tell though who will enter the White House in 2009. I personally like him. He is very charismatic. He appears to be a man of the people and for the people in every sense of the word. His speech is awe inspiring. He is known to have given seasoned media veterans "chills" during interviews. To hear him speak is to presently witness history in the making. He is undeniably mesmerizing to behold. In reference to him and his campaign, the title often arises "Messiah". It's scary and exhilarating all at once. these are very exciting times to be alive. I feel he has given hope to those Americans who once believed it to be a proud claim to make that one was American, and we lost that during the Bush administration. Here after nearly a decade of international ridicule and disgrace, one can see the light at the end of the tunnel, His name is Barak H. Obama! That's just me. If he is the anti Christ so be it. If not, let us enjoy the official dawning of a new era of peace and advancement for all man kind and these are the thoughts one holds in their mind while Obama leads the world closer to a oneness spoken of old and now leaping of the pages of our best international authors and into our future, one that now appears to be filled with not just hope which he has undoubtedly instilled in the global community, but, a leader who loves the world and all the inhabitants of it. May the creator look favorably upon us as a species and as a race of beings who can and WILL achieve the impossible. I know I did not want to talk politics on this blog but the intensity of the air is astounding and moving all of us in such ways as to defy logic. I have had a lot of things on my mind lately and these are but the most pressing. Well, that's my thoughts this afternoon.

GOOD FRIDAY

2008-07-25T09:22:00.000-07:00

I went to sleep last night around 2am, so naturally I woke up this morning early and easier than usual. I didn't feel well last night and as a result, I can't recall my night visions at all. That really tends to bother me when this happens. On another note, perhaps more positive. I can still feel the season of Fall creeping its way in, but not in a bad way though. Yesterday, I shared this experience with pretty much all the valet staff that was working and asked if they ever felt something similar. Most of them did not, some did not care either way. I believe Fall is the time of light and darkness balancing out. A natural equalizer. Strange to be feeling this in July though. It's still rather cool (no pun intended). This always leads me somewhere, where I never know. However it's usually unique in many ways, experientially speaking. Well that's this mornings update.

IN SEARCH OF

2008-07-23T10:19:00.000-07:00

This morning I was awakened rather abruptly by my significant other. I was involved in some very intense dream cycles. I can only recall a "Nightmare before Christmas" style Christmas tree and these ground metal looking cables running to it to power it some how. I saw no lights on the metallic tree to be illuminated. Also, there was a strange pulsing smoke lifting off the bundle of cables running to the tree. It was like the smoke that rises from a toy train sets caboose engine car. There was soo much more and yet I can't seem to recall much of what I witnessed. I suppose I slept OK though. I also felt that familiar "Fall approaching" feeling that I usually get before the fall season. This usually happens in early August, yet strangely, It is occurring near the end of July. Every year I get this moment of overwhelming Fall like weather and the thoughts normally associated with the appearance of the trees turning brown and the feelings one gets when they first see this happening. A few years ago I noticed this occurrence and every year since so many years have gone by with this "knowing" and sensing in advance that I can't seem to recall the first year. My guess is that I have always sensed it and only became aware of it in most recent times. Either way, I love this feeling because of the feeling of change is a warm emotion deep within me. I also love the forewarning of it's arrival. It's an amazing feeling to receive from nature an "heads up" on the coming seasonal cycle shift. I am appreciative and very thankful for it's gift. I feel almost magical and peaceful when it comes, and so very much alive. It appears to be a corrective sensation. Just like the animals that begin to prepare for the colder time approaching. Nature seems to be saying" get ready, place things in there respective order and be whole by being compliant with the natural rhythms and cycles of life". I enjoy change very much and it shows in how often I change my hairstyle and style of dress and many other little things that I do. Well, this sensation normally sets me off on a quest for the deeper more spiritual paths of life. I begin to go off in search of the deeper meanings of events in my life. Like the body when thirsty will let you know it's time to hydrate and get some much needed water in your body. It's the spiritual that leads to magic in your life and makes it more meaningful and impactful. The end result is a person who is content with all their surroundings and everyone they come into contact with. To put it simply, to be in "Harmony" with all of nature. Adopting these principals and adhering to the call to be something greater than I once was. This advance "knowing" from nature tells me the same message each year and the urging to a higher path calls in different tones. I am usually lost before this and feel a brief longing for something yet I don't know what it is. However this is the feeling that leads to a search for something bigger than myself in a spiritual way and not religious. Well these are my thoughts this morning. Good day!

Closer To Something

2008-07-08T08:59:00.000-07:00

Last nights dreams were vivid as usual. I have been going to sleep earlier than usual. I feel an emptiness and anticipation simultaneously. It's very awkward. I will be 34 years old on the 28th of this month. From what I understand, 35 is a mans prime. I suppose I should start my rejuvenation process and healing the body in areas I have been causing it harm. For example, smoking. There are many others areas of concern, but this is the most pressing of matters. There is much to do and all I have is time to address it. I will. I feel and sense in a very real way closer to something. An awakening perhaps. What ever it may be, it will be of value, and important. Somehow it all connected and tied in to what I am here on earth to do at this precise place and time. Then again, maybe it's all in my head and this is just a way to respond to inevitability, and my unavoidable death. We shall see. I will be more attentive and watchful.

Water, Stars and Zero Point Energy

2008-07-02T10:39:00.000-07:00

Last nights dream session was intense. There was for some reason a strong presence of water in different parts of the dream. I remember me and my fiance' arguing over where certain furniture was going to go in our home. It wasn't a real serious argument, however, I was annoyed because of the changes she wanted to make. Specifically the bed's location in the bedroom. This home of ours was not where we live now but, it was similar. The layout was very open. There was an adventurous undertone to the events in the dream. I believe that I knew it wasn't real, and played along with the events as you would normally do in a ride at Universal. So I guess I was just playing along. There was a point in the dream when I was looking out a window and the structure was primarily brick. I was noticing that we were on a secondary level and pretty high up. I was admiring the plants sitting on a plank in front of the window, marveling at the risky walk it would take to put them out there. I was impressed with what appeared to be the efforts of my stepmother. At some point the dream switched up rapidly or perhaps I can no longer remember. I was in what appeared to be an old fighter jet from WWII. It was night time and we were struck and the plane began to take a dive towards the ocean. I remember thinking will we feel severe pain on impact. Some how this is where I started realizing that there was that familiar ride feeling again and right before impact, I began to lose the fear of death. When we hit the water there were huge great white sharks swimming about in anticipation. Yeah ..definitely a ride. I took hold of one of the great whites fins and held on thinking they would not notice me attached to one of there own. It worked and while holding on, the great white I was holding came up towards the surface and I was on my back looking up at the night sky. There were hundreds and hundreds of stars out. It was a very clear evening sky. There were a certain grouping of stars that began to swirl closer together and I some how knew this to be of some sort of E.T presence and became so excited I began to tear up. They were coming to help "US" at a very crucial time. I some how knew that this event was very important for humanity. It was emotionally stirring. At some other point I was listening in on a conversation of what appeared to be a pit crew at some kind of NASCAR event. they were discussing a vehicle that was just recently introduced to the market that ran on no none conventional methods of propulsion and common fuel systems. It was so far out there, there was no none science to relate to its design. This is where the dream came to an end. The only thing that fits the description of this vehicle is Zero Point Energy. That's pretty much all I can remember for now. I'm not sure what this means, if it means anything at all. Perhaps it does and perhaps not. Either way.....I am still dreaming, and that can not be a bad thing.

So What Now?

2008-07-01T09:02:00.000-07:00

Once again...I awoke this morning like every other morning before it. Sleep was ok. I dreamt of nothing memorable. It's been a while since I've had a powerful or important night journey. I am at a great loss of words. I am not sure what has caused this vacuum, but it is becoming more and more noticeable. I am still working and happily employed. I have a roof over me and my families head and there is food in the refrigerator for us all. For this I am very grateful! I have noticed that I have become way more aware and appreciative of all that I have and receive. I consider it gifts, and I'm truly grateful. I am content in this moment regarding physical things but feel a deep hole were that which can be only explained in spiritual terms extremely lacking. This for me is a very dangerous place to be. Stagnation eventually deteriorates the person standing idle. It is a slump and all experience it at one point or another. I still have hope, and that is all that is required to exist.

The Asteroid And Indiana Jones

2008-05-23T07:36:00.000-07:00

So now for the connection between my "Asteroid" dream sequence and the "Indiana Jones" connection. On Wednesday night at 12:01 am, I got the opportunity to attend an advance screening of the fourth installment of Steven Spielberg's "Indiana Jones" saga. Well, maybe this is not considered advanced screening, but, an early screening because, it's available to the general public and not a select few. Anyway, I won't give away too much about the film here just in case some one reading this has not seen it yet. There were several important correlations with my dream from the movie. Now , I didn't realize it until the end of the film. There was a scene where the earth surrounding an ancient pyramid like area, in the amazon, begun to lift up and then swirl around in a "counter clock wise" fashion. This was caused by a portal activation involving E.T.'s of a familiar look, the "Grey's". What hit me like a ton of bricks was the debris was massive chunks of earth and ROCK! Then, at one point the debris just "stopped" mid air! Just like in my dream and I immediately recognized the resemblance to my dream and jumped in my seat and turned to my friend Thomas to my left and punched him in the arm saying "Oh my God! That's my dream!" I kept repeating this phrase to him, over and over, until he realized what I was talking about. See, I had told my fiance' about the dream as soon as she awoke that morning. Then later on Thomas called me, and as we were talking on the phone, I told him about this intense nocturnal engagement(as I like to call it). He was thoroughly impressed with the symbolism as he and I are of a like mind in many respects. We spoke long about it , discussing possible interpretive scenarios. It was really insightful, and, it assisted me in sifting through the details, causing me to go over the events of the dream in chronological order leaving no room for error. I suppose we discussed the dream for a good 45 minutes. It really helped me hammer out a lot of the dream on a deeper level. Later that day, I went to work and shared this dream with some of my co-workers. I also talked with and shared the dream with another close friend who is head of security at the mall I work at. He was impressed and seemed to understand the deeper implications of the dream. I also drew a picture of the meteorite scene to illustrate what I was describing to those I had told. I drew this picture on the back of a reservation cover sheet for that evening. Now, when the debris stopped and Thomas was "attacked" by my excitement(sorry about that Thomas :)) it's at that point that I began to pay close attention to what I was watching, and started to go over very quickly in my mind the entire movie, scanning for any other correlations. Once out side, we walked back to our cars discussing the significance of my dream in a new light. We were both "fired up" over this discovery. We began to discuss the movie and the dream parallels. There were many. The debris was one. The crystal skull in the film which was said to be of E.T. origin, made a sound nearly identical to the "coded" signal in my dream before the meteorite impacted the earth below. In the film "Indiana" goes to Brazil into the Amazon jungle in search of a lost city which was believed to have been founded by E.T. guides. The significance here is Mona vie is 40% composed of the "acai" berry, which comes from Brazil! It's known to the natives as "The Tree of Life" fruit. Another remarkable similarity and synchronicity was, the "crystal skull" not only made the same electronic like digital sound which I clearly heard in my dream mright before the asteroid dropped, but, also was highly magnetic, so much so that"Indiana" comments that it was "unnatural" primarily because, according to science, crystal is not magnetic which is quite obvious but needed to be pointed out because of the apparent anomoly., Despite this fact, all metallic objects were drawn to this "crystal skull". It was a powerful magnet among other things. In my dream the "asteroid" had the appearance of hematite, which can be magnetically charged! WOW~! I was so blown away, so was Thomas. We discussed this in the garage of the mall for nearly another half hour. Thomas said the similarities were striking and that "This means you're on the right path man!" It was amazing. I totally agree that this is a major synchronicity, and must not be ignored. I'll stop with the information I have given so far, so as not to give to much of the film away. Hopefully I have not ruined it for anyone. Well, that's all for now. Until the next episode...~CIAO!

Nocternal Engagements And Dr.Jones

2008-05-22T12:48:00.000-07:00

In the early hours of May 21 I was fast asleep and dreaming. Nothing unusual really. However, I have begun taking small doses of a berry drink which is high in anti-oxidants known as Mona Vie. The active drink as it is printed on the front of the bottle is "acai". This beverage has some 26 different types of fruit. After taking the first free sample bottle from my friend and co-worker, I noticed a significant boost in my overall level of energy and mental activity. I felt like 18 all over again and I'm 33. I shared the results with my friends and Matt who initially gave me the free sample bottle(which retails for around $50.00!). I thought the drink was very good and practical in it's uses. After I had finished the bottle, I waited on purchasing the next one from Matt about a week and a half later. Once I stopped taking it, I immediately noticed the difference. I wasn't as "happy" as when I took the juice. I mean the difference was night and day. So I decided to get another bottle immediately. I finally got another bottle and began to take it again. The house was getting cleaner do to my new found source of energy. Laundry, dishes, computer clean up and reformatting and kitty litter boxes and watering the house hold plants and anything else that needed my immediate attention. I love this stuff. Now for the real interesting events that have occured recently. For some time now before Mona Vie, I have been having some considerable amount of trouble in the dreaming aspect of my life. I just could not seem to recall any of them, I mean I knew I was having dreams, I just could not recall any of them and it was very disturbing to say the least. I felt that dreams, as an adult, are truely, the only tangible relics of our youth left in our lives that are untainted and connecting us to our original source. In short, dreams in my view should be considered sacred, and treated with serious reflection and inner soul searching. Mona Vie has not only returned to me the ability to recall the dreams I have been having, but have intensified them by a factor of 100x. Now for the dream that was the most vivid of all my nocturnal engagements as I like to refer to them, in my entire 33 years of dreaming. Not to say that other dreams of the past were not vivid, just not of this caliber. I was returning home(dreaming now) with my fiance'(she's real, her name is Shawna) to what appeared to be sort of like the Cosby show brownstone like building. (So this is not our true residence, as we live in Central Florida). There were two young teenagers together at the top of the steps looking to thier left, at what appeard to be, a really beautiful sunset taking place. From what I gathered, Shawna and myself did not have our two daughters with us when returning from what I imagined was shopping at some market. (there were many thing's that were "automatically" known in the dream so as not to break my concentration on what was occuring or about to bordering on the psychict) I never saw or knew where my daughters were in this dream, so there is nothing I can say either way regarding thier condition or where abouts. The teenagers were impressed by what at first appeared to be just a really pretty sunset. They were saying "ooooooh wow!, Look at that!" I turned my head to look over my right shoulder at what was an opening to a public park of some kind ,which was lit up by an amber glow of sun light. There were other people standing more centered to the park like entrance, facing the sun, some were wearing shades and others not. They were all wearing looks of bewilderment, some terror and awe. There was a sense of 4:30 to 5:30 time frame for this event. As I walked toward that area, where the others were, and there were perhaps, a dozen or so individuals and group clusters of two and three people all staring in the same direction. Now this days weather condition was extremely cloudy and seemed to be right before a severe tropical storm. This is why I believe that everyone standing around had the reaction they were having. When I finally got close enough to turn to face the brilliance and look down left towards the horizon where every one had been looking, I saw what could easily have been a 10 to 15 mile radius opening in the sky puncturing perfectly through and a massive 10 mile by 20 mile rock like clustered meteorite seconds before impact some 75 to 100 yards above the point of impact "frozen" in mid air . This hematite like structure was suspended in mid air by some unknown classified science.(I also knew this in the dream with absolute confidence) I remember thinking to myself in the dream that I was gifted with insight into things which was E.S.P. in every sense of the phrase. I also knew this thing was "prevented" from impacting the earth. The word "They' comes to mind. Who "THEY" were, I am not certain, but perhaps will become clearer for you later as I continue to explain further. I remember walking towards these people to get to thier vantage point and see what It was that had them so transfixed on this sight what ever it was. It was amazing! The brilliant light piercing through to the earth and the resulting amber glow hitting thier faces was remarkable. I remember my mouth opening and a gasp of air being taken in because for a split second I thought I was viewing my last sight, before this structure was to impact the earth. It was so vivid I could draw this, and even paint it if need be. Perhaps I will, then scan it and up load it to this blog. Will see. Now for the sound. There was a sound that was very recognizible as a digital code which sounded very similar to the sound when "NEO" in "The Matrix" was initially preparing to leave the matrix and return his consciousness to the real world and going into some sort of cartiac arrest. The scene is him opening his mouth and this silver like substance is consuming him and as it enters his mouth he yells and the sound turns digital in frequency. Now imagine that sound layered a thousand times over in a studio and then played over a stadium sound system but 1000 times louder than any earth based sound system and then you will know what this sound sounded like and its resultant response from those of us watching was horrific fear which is beyond description. Again,, psychic premonition told me to turn and run for my life , and I did so. As soon as I began to turn to run, within what you could not calculate, the short span of 1 second broken into 4 quarters this would be only one one tenth of a milisecond. This massive structure after the code sounded off, it dropped and impacted the earth with such a force that shot the surrounding earth into the sky several thousands of feet into the air with a force 100 times more powerful than a nuke. It sent in a 360 degree wave like motion everything laterally outward at such a speed, that, no one should have survived in a 100 mile radius. How I did is unknown to me. The feeling of loss was so overwhelming do to the fact that my fiance' was no longer with me I never saw her again and knowing this and the fact that so many perished in that instant was beyound descrisption. the sadness was so devistating to me , and all this while running and once again "knowing" I must get as far down and deep into the earth as possible. I did go into a mall like area and took some escalator deep down to some lower sub levels. Once I arrived there i continued on down deeper to a boiler level and from that point there was another door with acess to under the city sewer level and this door was monitored by a man whom I could not identify. I some how managed to get passed him and assist with getting people inside with us and there was a woman with two children, one was an infant in her arms and another he/she could have been three or so. I don't remember what thier gender was and for obvious reasons it really didn't matter. Getting them to safety was. The father shows up, as we are allowing her to pass through, and in tears screams "those are my children"and the man in control of this point did not want him to come in, something with there is not enogh room or whatever the excuse was. So, in compasssion for this man, I was moved by his sincerity, and once again "knew" that this man, could prove his paternity by "singing" a specific song to the children. I told him to sing and the man controling the door to let him sing to the children so he could see the childrens reaction to the father singing. During this entire ordeal, there was a extreme sense of fear and paranoia, because ,yes there was a "knowing" that those that did servive the impact on the surface were "altered" somehow geneticalyl and thier D.N.A was changed making them cannibalistic, and very similar to the humans in "I AM LEGEND". As the father began to sing to the children I was overcome with his song which I can not remember now. I only remember seeing his tear filled eyes streaming down his face and just feeling an overwhelming sadness that pervaded ever part of my being. It was right then, that I either awoke from this dream or the sublect matter switched to something else. Later on this morning I also dreamt of being the personal political advisor to Barak H. Obama's wife Michelle. Yeah....I know. Wierd. I have to go to work now, so, how Dr. Indiana Jones connects to this will literally blow your mind! I will share the rest when I return home from work tonight. Caio!

AS PREDICTED

2008-05-19T06:58:00.000-07:00

Recently, Barak H. Obama attended a campaigning stop off in Oregon. Nothing unusual except for the fact that some 75 thousand showed up. Christ has returned and the world is responding. You see, the first mention of Obama was some time ago and I remember his intro to the world. It's easy because it was amid some controversy regarding the fact that he swore in to his office on a Koran. ? Yes, this was my first encounter with the Modern day promoted "Messiah". I am not saying this to be sarcastic. I am telling the truth. I watched this overnight star rise out of nowhere. Before this campaign, (I am sure I am not alone in this) I had never heard of such a person. Now he is more than a politician, He is treated as if he is already president of the U.S.. You will notice that every photo op of this guy cast him in a Divine manner. As if he is more than royalty, some how, even HOLY. He and the word messiah has been said many times over, waaaaaaay after I had spoke with some of my closest friends on the issue that is Barak Obama. He has been compared to some of the greatest speakers of our American heritage. Lincoln, J.F.K., M.L. King jr. to name just a few. All these things I wish I had in this blog as it occurred. Why? I believe that I could have started a career in "psypolitics". I had predicted from my very first hearing of an Obama speech that he would win the Democratic nomination and go on to defeat the Republican pic, and enter the White House. I was and still am very sure of my statement. I have made some bets with friends, two weeks wages! All from one speech. You see, I am a leo. Leo's are great orators. I can easily spot the most influential of speakers. I have a way with words which requires a confidence that is not arrogant but passionate. That is the key. The genuine article is the person who can deliver a speech with such energy , that it is transmitted through to the hearer and energizes and INSPIRES the listener to previously unimaginable heights. Remember William Jefferson CLINTON? He is a leo. I know how to deliver a speech. It requires an academy award winning performance while delivering the lines to the speech. Passion is what people want and leadership that FEELS like you did the first time you ever honestly one something. I said this man is also not a christian in the truest sense of the word. He is mysterious, which is mind blowing considering he is running for the Presidential office of the United States of America. I am not a supporter of this man nor do I dislike this man. He is a politician regardless of what he tells the media. Politicians do what they are told from those out of the cameras view and eager ears of the attending reporters frenzy. I said," this man speaks with such authority, that none will pose a threat to his claims". He is not truly being challenged because I believe it has been arranged for this man to rise to power and CHANGE the face of the planet and set the world ablaze with such revolutionary thought that will make every major politician look like like a black and white silent film compared to a Sony H.D. There is soo much more than meets the eye with this man. However he WILL do, what he has been sent to do, because of the large data of responses from the ever increasing silent citizenry of the U.S., and playbook from the Bush cartel made available in 8 years of test runs on unprecedented maneuvers from the White House dictator. Bush has done more damage than any other president in U.s. history, and openly, not hidden. The response was the deciding factor in what can be done to the American people today. With 8 years of federal abuse and an entire universe of stealth politics recorded, Obama can soon reveal himself a little more once in office. He will continue his vague tactics to minimize resistance to any of his assignments. His vision will be made our vision, and any who oppose him will be deleted. ENDGAME.

CINCO DE MAYO

2008-05-05T07:27:00.000-07:00

Good Morning. Welcome back! It is a day for drinking and celebrating whatever your desire is to celebrate. The occasion is not as important as the act itself. The point is to DRINK to something or for something. I personally will not be drinking.(LOL) Read my dream regarding the drinking and the aftermath that ensued. I awoke this morning early. Surprisingly early. I took my daughter to school. I made breakfast for the other one. I ate breakfast myself. I enjoyed some scrambled eggs and a couple of sausage patties. I also heated up a cup of old coffee which was a day old. I have been thinking lately that all must be used and nothing wasted. Hence drinking every bit of the coffee that I made a day earlier. My mood is one of "sensing". I sense a need for a better way of doing everything that I am currently attempting to do. I have noticed a sharp change in my attitude of late. I am far more cynical then I had ever wanted to admit. I do not enjoy this sensation. Cold Play has a song in which he (the lead singer) asks "Do you feel like a puzzle, you can't find your missing piece". I certainly do. Now more than ever I am asking why am I here? Why now? Am I supposed to do something here on earth or just simply consume and move according to governmental prodding? I am not sure of much. I am aware of much. I can do an infinite amount of actions in the coming moments. For now I am content with what has been posted here.

Less I Forget

2008-05-01T09:39:00.000-07:00

Last night I dreamt of being involved with some sort of religious crack down team within the religious order itself. A self governing system that was aware of esoteric knowledge and those that would use it to control or manipulate others via this knowledge. Secretly I was aware that I was infiltrating "them". My guide in this team was a male figure who was in a black" Jedi" like clothing. He wore a black robe with a hood. We were inside a room of occult and religious artifacts, which he was grabbing certain items and placing them on his person somewhere inside the robe. I watched and listened. He was instructing me so I gather that I was a new edition to this team. T he team had history and was not new by any means. He spoke of a certain sect within this massive order that dealt with dark arts and he named them and said these guys could not be trusted and basically said they exposed themselves by their very actions. I can't recall the name of the particular sect. I was in preparation to go out on a recon assignment of some sort. That is all I remember about this segment of the dream. Another segment of my dream involved massive purplish crystals covering a large area. In between these crystals, that seemed to be pulsing in a low wattage capacity, were beings of almost a silhouette dark shadow nature. They could be heard communicating or making some communication by a very ;low indiscernible murmuring. That is all I can recall at this time regarding that particular segment. As I begin to blog more, I will make my entries upon awakening first thing in the morning. Yesterday was a dream in daylight hours and being drawn to some mansion of a home on some island like Staten Island in N.Y.C.

Last Nights Engagements In The Ether

2008-04-29T06:57:00.000-07:00

Last night, I dreamt. I was arrested. This dream was extremely meticulous in detail and was very vivid. Apparently I was under the influence of alcohol and had assaulted a police officer. This was verified by my older brother by three years in a visit to his home. In my drunken stupor I managed to visit with my brother and tell him this in that state. He said that I was "out of it". I remember wearing a full orange jump suit, the kind that's issued to inmates in jail, the handcuffs were the to interlocked cuffs that they use now. What was interesting was that at one point the cuffs were not closed correctly and I was contemplating running away from the law. However, In the dream I reasoned that there would be nowhere to go without having to run for the rest of my natural life. I also was very emphatic in insisting that I had zero recollection of the said assault on this never to be seen officer. I was deeply disturbed in this dream as it appeared to be occurring in real time, almost bordering on the "prophetic". At one point in the dream I was asking others in the neighborhood about the knowledge regarding such an offense and whether or not if they knew what penalty would be applied. Thinking about it now, I know that that answer would be dependent on the amount of damage inflicted on the officer and how he would retaliate with me and pressing charges or perhaps the city, since after all he is a civil servant. Any how, the dream was very real and vivid. I can't stress that enough. I remember asking this young black kid in the neighborhood if he knew what kind of sentence would this act produce. So you have an alcoholic state and an attack on a police officer and it being done by me. Getting arrested for it and sensing the loss of freedom being very real when contemplating the amount of future time I would be allowed with my two girls and their mother. It was very real and sad. I awoke feeling extremely relieved by the fact that it was just a night vision. I also felt gratitude for the dream presenting such a real scenario. In appreciation, I will not be (just being safe here) going out anytime soon to drink or at home either. I believe that nothing is by chance and that the possibility that on some higher plain of existence, that "ME" is attempting contact with my mind and could be alerting my attention to this very probable future. So avoid situations with smarter decisions to prevent such a serious predicament. I wonder how much danger has been averted by paying attention to your dreams? Well, I just wanted to share this dream with you all.

"So Many Prophets Too Few Certainties"

2008-04-23T12:43:00.000-07:00

Hello to all! Welcome back! It is currently 81 degrees and sunny. Beautiful weather here in Orlando Florida. So, last night was the live coverage of the Penn Primary. I watched some of it. I thought that there is a Martin Luther King Jr. style of speech to Obama. He is a powerful voice in light of our current administrations commander in chief. A very serious and sincerity to his voice. He said things that I agreed with. I should say that since the last ordeal in Florida regarding the voting process I have lost "faith' in this process over all. Are the races fixed? I can not say for sure. I sense that these elections are rigged some how, but lack the evidence to support it. However there does seem to be some glaring "coincidences" regarding Bush vs Al Gore's election in 2000. See Michael Moore's "Fahrenheit 911" for more on this. Although his work has come under fire. Pretty much all things across the board have come under fire lately. Politics, the U.S. as a world power, the Olympics in China, etc. There is a lot of talking and thinking and suggesting and so forth. Yet I watch. There are those under the banner of "Prophecy" claiming to know or have foreknowledge of the end results to much that is going on down here on earth. The future, however is hypothetically speaking impossible to predict with absolute certainty. Why? There are infinite decisions to be made by over 6.66 billion on this planet collectively to support one individuals claims. This is astronomical. All have been unsuccessful in being 100% on target. Right now the future exists in our heads, infinite roads before each person on earth. Each of us helping to create this "future". The present can be viewed in many ways from many different points of view, hence this blog. You know what? I thought about what I would want as a current time table to 2012 scenario, and I am uncertain about it . Are you? There is a part of me that would like to see real change without global cataclysms and another that feels this is for our good so we will be driven to succeed due to our will to survive, and we would most definitely appreciate it more when that which we create collectively comes. Either way we will see. Well that is all for now , it's time to go to work. "Jason"

"The Reverent Ones"

2008-04-22T11:45:00.000-07:00

Hello to all. Welcome back. Thank you for returning. It is currently 2:50pm eastern standard time here in sunny Orlando Florida. It is absolutely beautiful outside. If only the media's reports reflected such a sight as we have here in Florida. The sunset will be a stunner this evening, no doubt about it. I moved here in 2000 from Oahu, Hawaii. It was a time in ,my life that will forever be embedded in my memory. Yes, there are times I wonder where, on an alternate timeline, would I be or be doing had I stayed there. It's human to contemplate such things. In other words, it's O.K.! I certainly appreciated the people of the Oahu island. They were in awe of the beauty of the sun, and when it would begin its sensual dance towards the horizon, melting away like butter, they would stand and watch in reverence of it's shear power to hypnotize any living thing in it's glorious path. Once the sun would completely disappear, the natives would clap in honor of the days blessed rays, lighting the tiki torches along the beach in waikiki, and I was brought to tears by such reverence. I soon learned of these hidden gems of the lifestyle there in Oahu, and myself began to appreciate the importance of our sun. I would soon be standing along side my new friends there and clap with them in honor of our most precious star. These days the memories like the setting sun fade in to the recesses of my mind and become less impactful on my present day to day activities. Sometimes, I would cry here in the initial years of living in Florida as a stranded alien who could not return to their former home. I was saddened by the absence of the reverent people of Hawaii. the vibe there was one that should be experienced first hand. I climbed mountains and sat among the clouds and meditated and felt the winds of this great Earth brush my face, like some unseen artist creating me anew moment to moment. I was 26 then. I am 33 now. I am heart broken over who I have become since then. Many years have passed and that would be shelved away as my "Golden Era". A transformation that lasted for a while here in the first 6 months, but gradually faded with time. I want you all to know that I ache daily to be as free as I felt running through those lush forests, and times where I stood and watched the mountain I was on, slip away into the pacific ocean like some Hallmark film. I wanted to share this memory with YOU. I hope it made YOU smile, even if for a brief moment in time. Never forget the moments in life that you were most human. It is the memories which I believe will sustain us in the difficult times ahead of us. Be well today. Breathe. "JASON"

Hello My Name IS.......

2008-04-21T12:56:00.000-07:00

This blog has no expectations. It can not for obvious reasons. It's authors purpose for this blog is to establish a reference point,in which the author may or may not have the ability to interface with other bloggers globally. Whether or not this occurs is irrelevant. The information on this sight will be one of research in many different fields of study, as well as personal reports on multiple levels of the authors consciousness. Daily thoughts and experiences along with "dream" journaling will be readily available here. Again this blog is one of many. There is no reason to accept what the author is saying is related to you or anyone else whether it appears familiar or not or closely resembles someone or something or some group, etc. This blog is not for "lashing out" at someone etc. It is a "window" into the mind of one person out of 6.66 billion people also sharing this planet with the author. Perhaps this blog will assist someone somehow in someway. All is speculative and relative to the writer/author and viewer. You reading this are immediately entered into a virtual space created for an intellectual dance. Author and viewer may at some point agree and see "eye to eye" and at other times may not. However the author will make every attempt to remain neutral. Should "things' get "out of hand" at some future point in time than simply log off and return when feeling refreshed. The author will do the same respectfully and politely excuse himself. If an offense occurs throughout the creation and "weaving" of this "verbal quilt", the author will apologize for the offense immediately. The key is to harmonize to interface to grow and learn. Please understand that "religion" and "politics'' are considered "hot buttons" and the author will tread cautiously and tactfully when possible and when not simply disengage the topic or subject matter entirely. Feel free to come to know the author on a even level with you as we are all humans seeking the collision of "our" molecules to create new designs on many levels. Looking forward to the"Dance". Sincerely the Author.